i'm always speechless when it comes to blogging

I've LOTS of things to tell to express it out from the inner me.. there is no place for me to dump everything out. so.. i choose blogging but!! it's always.. ALWAYS come speechless hmmph mcb.. how nice if i have a laptop 24/7 can be used.. then my every feeling can be express out.. instate of leaving in side of me.. where making me more worse.. argh