the 2nd me

I prefer for you to wait till I tell you what happen if I didn't then you don't need to care. I don't like you to ask me while my mood is still unstayble. I hate it. specially you.. others is still okayy.. I don't know why I just don't like you to know everything bout me. LoL. I mean.. you don't need to know everything bout me. LOL. okay okayy I am angry. thats why okay. stop asking.

my phone is out of credit though so sien.. just because of smart smart me went and change digi sim card into S500i and did every way to get my phone online.. so click click here click click there.. RM13 gone.. LoL.. i-d-i-o-t.. cannot sms already.. I used hotlink sim card to message emo Poh Pui.. because it expensive so we didn't get to chat long.. well she wasn't feeling very well yesterday night.. maybe she caught cold because we went under the rain for quite some time.. xp I'm listening to Yi Ge Ren I don't know why I registered for another blog account..

I'm not sure what am I doing now is right.. but.. I'm sure I understand who am I with now.. I don't need a guy to lead me.. I wanna be myself.. after few more days.. maybe weeks.. or even months.. I'll be fine again.. I won't and will not chase after guys anymore.. Hoping that the guy him self come to me.. then that means he is the one liking me.. No, even though I like you.. I think I'll just keep it to myself, I'll just stay in the situation we are in now, until something happen.. I'm tired of going after, trying so hard to understand a guy's heart.. After Ced.. he was the one I really like. It feels the same feeling towards Ced. I always believe.. after Ced I can still love someone just like I did to him. I'm going to give that very one person my every piece of love. There is someone I can get along with now.. but if only he comes to me.. then I'm sure after some time we can become an item.. As you say.. A broken heart needs time to cure.. I'll do what I think is fine.. but I will still be aware

I'm tired of smiling so fakely these few days.. I though I get thru it already after chatting with Reen.. but.. I realise.. sometimes I will feel so down until I feel like locking myself into a room and cry. After a busy day.. on my bed I will just stare at the scilling for a long time.. thinking of you.. I day dream at times in school.. thinking of you.... wondering how are you doing... I found out. I still can't let you go.. even I say I will... I am trying but.. but it's not easy... ''who is sleeping beauty missing until is after bed time?'' max you're nice.. but.. you're not the one.. even sleeping beauty don't have her prince, this feeling.. is always bitter and sweet..

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