God 

Must Have Spent 

A Little More Time 

On You

*~ because you're just the one for me ~*

Attention this post, these colour, words are personally to A PERSON.

So please don't be perasan.

Phrase with this (*) then only is stated to whom.

No offence to anyone.

Is all my thinking.

And I am NOT looking for trouble.

I've the permission from that PERSON already.

Please don't create unwanted problems.

Every phrase is wrote after receiving the next messages.

**************thoughts starts*************

Till the end, we'll found out even though we're angel, we'll still be mistaken as demons. So should we stay angelic? When everyone is accusing you?

Because I believe in myself, and I don't want people or things they bring up to change me who I am.

*I was just thinking about this, this morning. Now is even more clear to be shared.

Don't tell, don't tell... but what if I'm real?

How hurt will I felt? But.. I  know, what does ''personal secrets'' are. I have too.

Everyone has it's dark secret. You have the rights, I know. 

But why does my heart aches?

Left, right, up and down

Stuck on forward

Troubles are coming one after another.

Never gonna end.

Till we're all sincere and speak only the truth

But don't forget I'll be always here. I'll stay be on this spot.

I still don't dare to call you mylove, because I know your heart is still not mine to be owned.

Till the time we really trust each other, till we deeply understand each other, 

I'll be waiting for the time to come.

Yeah.. it hurts. It really, really hurts. 

But I didn't cry this time.

I learn from the previous argument, 

which way to face it, which way to solve, and that way is definately not crying.

* waaa! EeMin big girl already aahhhhh! xD *proud* ...... *piak* stupid! sigh... *

I do feel like crying, I know in these situation I will cry and I should be crying my eyes out now.

But is not my turn to cry.

I want to stand by you, no matter how much your words hurts.

I'll still be here, cause I trust you. Just like you trusted me before.

After that fight, I know we can't loose each other.

When the minute I wanted to give up, and you didn't.

That moment, I know I'm gonna have you as my lifelong soul mate.

You ARE a friend for life.

Because you have the faith in me, 

because you really care about me, that's why no matter how is it to speak the truth, 

and how hurt it will be, you'll still say it. 

You'll still be true.

You'll make me face it, and change it.

You gave me a chance.

Of course,this is just what I thought. Is my point of view. That is what I want to trust.

As for you, I might not be your best best friend. I don't know~

The seat in your heart may belong to another.

But Hey!

Your's is still here.

How will you feel, when someone important still consider your trust?

After so much you've been thru together.

How hurtful it'll get?

* wanted to ask someone else about this via sms. but at last didn't. Didn't want to mafan Oppa =/

And this song just came into my mind. Seriously I was singing inappropriate lyrics that time

Enrique Iglesias 

Hero

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

I Can Be Your Hero

* yes I'll transform into SuperGirl.. oh my super girl ni shi wo de super girl~ ^^

Sit down and talk to me. 

Focus your attention and talk to me.

Find the right one to tell the right thing.

Why do you doubt me? Why is people talking behind of me?

I can't and I don't want to leave you dangling with troubles.

I want all the liars get off your life. 

I want to see your smile and your confidence back again.

I'm worried that you will go crazy if this doesn't ends any soon.

***************thoughts ends***************

*gaps* can't upload Khisho's photo while wishing him Happy Birthday on the previous few post.

Here is it.

My dear prom date.

The beatboxer.

Khisho

Practically this post is to confess to someone only.

Proving also.. hope you understand my feelings that time.

But don't go cracking your head or blaming your self.

I'm totally fine! And have got over it.

So don't mind it k.

You have others to solve, I don't want to be another extra one.

girl girl just said nightnight

^^ now my inbox is full.

with 59 messages.

Haha but glad that you've gain your mood back =]

loveee ya *eemuackszz*

xoxo

EeMin

*~ im not gonna loose you, not again. ~*

A Sundae Without Its Ice-Cream

*~ seventeen candles ~*

Thanks for being part of my life! I never knew what evil was before this!

Gossip Girl

Once upon a time, there is a group of best friends

2 besties

One is taken

Another is in progress

She shines,

she's gorgeous,

she's kind,

she's smart,

she's funny,

she's caring,

she's helpful,

she's responsible

she's humble,

she's wild,

she's the-queen

She's sweet,

She's intelligent,

She's kind,

She's want-it-all

She's selfish,

She's naughty,

She's the-princess

One rainy day, they argued

She & Him too

Cool war among friends

She got emotional

Hoping for forgiveness

She got worried too

Forgiven each other

Back with the friends

Hang outs

Try clapping with one hand

Madly deeply in love

What's the bad news?

He's leaving.

Telling hearts out

The misunderstood Day

She with ''her'' enemy

She with ''her'' enemy

Disagreements occurs

They finally fight

Asking her back

Sweetly in love

War declared

She and ''the group''

Negotiating

What will happen next?

Still living in cold war

or

Seeking peace?

What is there to do now?

B turn right

S turn left

Leaving each other to our own desires?

B just wish to be with S till graduation

and after graduation

and after college

and working

and after marrying

and after having childrens

and after having grandchildren

till death take them a part.

Friendship back to the good olden days

And look forward to the bright future a head

* photos from FaceBook-Gossip Girl group.

This is an indirect story. Use your brain & your heart to figure it out.
Don't come looking for me, because I would never want to talk about it.
For those who are happy about this issue, YOU CAN GO BURN IN HELL

xoxo
Ee Min

Congratulation on your success. 

Before you go, would you like to take this knife out of my back. You'll probably need it again. x]

*~ enough about it ~*

Draw Lines On The Pumpkin

Draw Lines on The Pumpkin

*~ you are ben tan ~*

Few days.. few days.. few days ago

Was lying down on Mom's bed

With QiuQiu

Watching videos in her phone

And don't know when my handphone accessories becomes hers

Argued with my youngest brother : Bryan

Scumpy become our victim

Today is Sunday the eventful day

New red red shirt

Accessories given by Grandma today

Reached SS2 

It's so darn hot

So I tied my hair up

F.T. Island

One Date

Lie

Click play to play

It's not bad

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

8am Went Paramout to have dimsam with grandma and Serina Aunt

11am Grandma visited our home in SS2

12:30pm All of us and Amy's went over to Uncle Kuman's house for Deepavali Open House

2pm Fetch Grandma back to Salak South, went swimming a while. Chitchat. 

7pm+ Went home after dinnering with Grandma 

Geez.. at Grandma house I played the piano, and amaze grandma. Haha! At Uncle's house was socialful. Hahaha! Because I sat another table only with Marcus, then another chinese family came and sat with us. Uncle introduced, then we chat. I felt like I'm some adult-human-being the upper-east type of living. Lol. Haha. Hilarious. PLUS! I've live here for about 10years? And I didn't know my aunt's neighbour has a son still studying in a college. WTH? I thought he was working already and stuff you know. Hahaha! This open house idea really do pull everyone closer. I should think of Christmas right? Can decorate my house with snowflakes and really cool + nice + tall Christmas Tree. ^^

No No No I should not think of PROM at this hour, nor now. Haha. I'm worried about my prom date, my dress, my transport, my table, my friends my.. my.. my.. etc 

Haha. I should be studying now you know? Once weekend comes, then my engine also stop already. Haha. Lazy bug came back. =[ 

Roar roar roar I just read the chinese newspaper the entertainment part. And I'm damn happy and glad that I didn't go Sungai Wang today. xD Over a thousand fans were there, and Lee MinHo showed up only for 16minutes!! and you got to spend and then lucky draw only get to go in. Only 200 fans are allowed. HUH??!!!! what-the-right? Haha. Luckily. So darn lucky. HAHA. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha ^^

All kena con already. 

sigh. pathetic lah like that. If TVXQ comes, and it's similar to this.. aiyer, I'm gonna sue them. SOOoooooooo gonna sue them. Oh! and here is my new schedule from tonight onwards.

Weekdays

6am GoodMorning sunshine~ ^^

7am Schooling

1pm Reach home, clean up, lunch.

2pm Study

5pm Help with dinner

8pm Clean up cores 

8:30pm Beethoven Virus

9:30pm Bathe

10pm Study 

11:30pm Back schoolbag, uniform.

12am Bed time! zzzzzzzzzz

Haha. Weekends not done yet ne. =P

9:59pm

xoxo

> Ee Min < 

note : be quiet at some moment, is correct.

*~ happy birthday ~*

Lovin You

*~ how can I ever forget ~*

Jejung

Q: What type of girl do you like?
A: Not a very talkative person, and when I meet her, she'll make my heart go *thump*

Q: Where do you want to go on a date?
A: If it's with the person I like, anywhere is ok. I want to hold hands while walking together.

Q: When was your first love?
A: In sixth grade, I fell in love with an angelic cute girl one year younger than me.

Q: Are you the type to closely/meticulously contact your girlfriend?
A: I'm bad at calling, but I want to tell her my feelings through my diary or letters after a long time not seeing her.

Q: What do you look forward to her doing?
A: For her to be considerate when I'm tired after work- that would make me really happy.

Yuchun

Q: What type of girl do you like?
A: Rather than a pretty girl, a girl with personality.

Q: Where do you want to go on a date?
A: To go to Paris during winter and breath the cold air while walking together.

Q: When was your first love?
A: I didn't understand what "go out with me" meant in elementary school.

Q: Are you the type to closely/meticulously contact your girlfriend?
A: Because I haven't had the experience, I'm not really sure. But every now and then when I meet her, I'll treasure those times.

Q: What do you look forward to her doing?
A: If she is able to make a stable relationship even when I'm busy (with work/traveling overseas, etc). 

above sources from Under The Stars 

silence section : Hero JaeJoong likes girl who's got nice hands, and closes her mouth while laughing *wink*


There will be a event on Nov next month about TVXQ held in K.L. By AKTF.. I'm not sure what's AKTF la.. But no matter what ''event'' is that. I'm going. 

*****************************

Oppa Nappa

Even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough I don't hear your voice on my messages

Why am I still letting you in?
I used to be trippin' over missin' you
I got the picture phone but your picture's gone
Won't be seeing your pictures when I misses you

'Cause it's over

We know it's over
I'm tryin to erase you from my mind

I still wake up every morning quarter to ten
I still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table
I can't even remember how long it's been
No trouble stayin' occupied

I do what I can not to put my business in the streets
Last thing I need's another episode

 It's over when the burnin'

And the yearnin' inside my heart is ain't there anymore

And move me like the way you moved me before

And you wanna pull her close

But your heart has froze

You kiss her but her eyes don't close

Then she goes out of your heart forever

And it hurts you but you know that it's better

no 

i wasn't

i wasn't 

i wasn't

i wasn't 

i wasn't...

thinking of you

If you and you are reading this. Please understand that, my blog is the only place for me to pour my heart out. If I've wrote things I shouldn't really be writing or stating it down then.. I'm sorry. I hope you'll still treat me the same. Just normal and leave this reading behind. I hope that posts like this will be little, and it will just be a pass by thingy. I hope it doesn't flow out of this page. 

It's a few words that I have to say it and not keeping it inside.. Hope you'll understand... No. Please. Understand. I'm asking for some space. 

*~ am I being a little more selfish? ~*

Nowadays, a lot of things are happening.. Things like earth quakes, tsunamis, all the natural disasters.. And our own problems. Maybe the reason is because I'm having my ''best friend's'' visit now.. Easy to get angry, easy to get annoyed, easy to felt tired, easy to be emotional... 

Yesterday I slept at 5:30am. I guess it will be the same for today. Because it's already 5:29am. Was texting him from 3am till 5:30am. After dinner yesterday I brought Marcus and Bryan to Sahara.. The park behind my old house. Was thinking of digesting my tummy, because I had gastric while I was onlining. That time Mom was preparing dinner already. But after I are, specially after gastric, I got to find the fastest way to digest it. And not just sit down there and do nothing. It will be really painful to do so. 

We reached the park about 6:30pm. We play, and jogged till 7:30pm. Sadly my basketball is out-of-air and somebody can't make it in time for a last minute basketballing. So I headed home. Minutes after we cooled down, I followed Mom out to SEA Park, Guardian-7 Eleven and then to the CD Rental Shop. I borrowed the whole set of My Girl korean drama. 

I just can't resist to get a original DVD of it. I love the story line, I love the actors, I love the sound track. How can I not own one? Came home with a pack of kopi ice, * totally forgotten about my ''best friend''* and snacks, and lollipops, and cokes. Played the 3rd episode of the drama. 

After drama-ing, I took bathe and went over to Amy's house to play mahjoong. I texted Evonne to join us. We played 3 person mahjoong till 12:30am. Dragon fetch me home, but hearing that my Dad is still yam-ing cha with my JunJie cousin so we went to join them. I take away roti canai, and teh tarik. Reached home, bathe, continue my drama in my room. Till 3am. Got to stop watching before it comes to the really interesting part. Lie on my bed.. wondered for a while.. Then start clicking my phone.. Got into a few interesting conversations, end up sleeping at 5:30am.

My alarm rang on 12pm this morning. But I woke up at 2pm. Mom & Dad left the house about almost 3pm. Leaving down 50bucks for Marc, Bryan & my dinner. They are going up to Genting for a concert, and because Dad have booked a room in Highland so they will be coming back later in the early morning. Thats why I am here onlining. We ordered McD for dinner. And I got myself the glass that McD is offering now. Mine is grey in colour. Exactly the one that I wanted. I still want the white one.. I guess it's the last in the line. 

Who wanna have lunch/dinner at McD with me soon kay? Text me =) 

5:50am

xoxo

> Ee Min <

note : if only you're familiar with the road to my place

*~ the trurth has  always been cruel ~*