Just A Short But Meaningful Update

*~ eat fried potatoes and drink coke ~*

Hey people! I won't be updating my blog so often already. view me on twitter or facebook kay? Lots to update so I'll see when I'm really free and really got the mood to update only I'll update. xP

Anyway just recently looking for a job. It's Chritsmas Eve. I planned to go OU just now. To One World Hotel, don't know there got vacancy or not. And then.. something came up, like my SISTER xD. I'm at McD now. Saw some form3s, Zhao Yang, Roy & my young uncle + aunty. LOL! haha hilarious!

jeez. Now what? ... look for job!! I want new phone!! hahax

xoxo
Ee Min

ps : take care! my aliens xD
pps : merry christmas!
ppps : hmm.. where I get the ''pps'' ah? o.o? i wonder too. from YoU?
pppps : yesterday nigth I made a bet with 1 of my besties. saying that.. my next bf won't be ''you'' and ''YoU''. and I won't lie to myself and her. haha. and i say.. my next bf will be something like SuJu or DBSK. LOL!! laugh for all you want lah. xD damn silly wei. haha
ppppps : Jang Geun Suk. my new crush. xP sue me lahhh
pppppps : too much? this one last okay, last. goodluck to PMRers xD

*~ remember to go toilet after that ~*

I knew wasn't love alright dear?

We hardly meet each other.

Sms is an excuse.

I don't believe we can produce ''love'' thru text messages. 

So goodbye to you and I.

^^

live happily. 

hugs & kisses.

God 

Must Have Spent 

A Little More Time 

On You

*~ because you're just the one for me ~*

Attention this post, these colour, words are personally to A PERSON.

So please don't be perasan.

Phrase with this (*) then only is stated to whom.

No offence to anyone.

Is all my thinking.

And I am NOT looking for trouble.

I've the permission from that PERSON already.

Please don't create unwanted problems.

Every phrase is wrote after receiving the next messages.

**************thoughts starts*************

Till the end, we'll found out even though we're angel, we'll still be mistaken as demons. So should we stay angelic? When everyone is accusing you?

Because I believe in myself, and I don't want people or things they bring up to change me who I am.

*I was just thinking about this, this morning. Now is even more clear to be shared.

Don't tell, don't tell... but what if I'm real?

How hurt will I felt? But.. I  know, what does ''personal secrets'' are. I have too.

Everyone has it's dark secret. You have the rights, I know. 

But why does my heart aches?

Left, right, up and down

Stuck on forward

Troubles are coming one after another.

Never gonna end.

Till we're all sincere and speak only the truth

But don't forget I'll be always here. I'll stay be on this spot.

I still don't dare to call you mylove, because I know your heart is still not mine to be owned.

Till the time we really trust each other, till we deeply understand each other, 

I'll be waiting for the time to come.

Yeah.. it hurts. It really, really hurts. 

But I didn't cry this time.

I learn from the previous argument, 

which way to face it, which way to solve, and that way is definately not crying.

* waaa! EeMin big girl already aahhhhh! xD *proud* ...... *piak* stupid! sigh... *

I do feel like crying, I know in these situation I will cry and I should be crying my eyes out now.

But is not my turn to cry.

I want to stand by you, no matter how much your words hurts.

I'll still be here, cause I trust you. Just like you trusted me before.

After that fight, I know we can't loose each other.

When the minute I wanted to give up, and you didn't.

That moment, I know I'm gonna have you as my lifelong soul mate.

You ARE a friend for life.

Because you have the faith in me, 

because you really care about me, that's why no matter how is it to speak the truth, 

and how hurt it will be, you'll still say it. 

You'll still be true.

You'll make me face it, and change it.

You gave me a chance.

Of course,this is just what I thought. Is my point of view. That is what I want to trust.

As for you, I might not be your best best friend. I don't know~

The seat in your heart may belong to another.

But Hey!

Your's is still here.

How will you feel, when someone important still consider your trust?

After so much you've been thru together.

How hurtful it'll get?

* wanted to ask someone else about this via sms. but at last didn't. Didn't want to mafan Oppa =/

And this song just came into my mind. Seriously I was singing inappropriate lyrics that time

Enrique Iglesias 

Hero

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

I Can Be Your Hero

* yes I'll transform into SuperGirl.. oh my super girl ni shi wo de super girl~ ^^

Sit down and talk to me. 

Focus your attention and talk to me.

Find the right one to tell the right thing.

Why do you doubt me? Why is people talking behind of me?

I can't and I don't want to leave you dangling with troubles.

I want all the liars get off your life. 

I want to see your smile and your confidence back again.

I'm worried that you will go crazy if this doesn't ends any soon.

***************thoughts ends***************

*gaps* can't upload Khisho's photo while wishing him Happy Birthday on the previous few post.

Here is it.

My dear prom date.

The beatboxer.

Khisho

Practically this post is to confess to someone only.

Proving also.. hope you understand my feelings that time.

But don't go cracking your head or blaming your self.

I'm totally fine! And have got over it.

So don't mind it k.

You have others to solve, I don't want to be another extra one.

girl girl just said nightnight

^^ now my inbox is full.

with 59 messages.

Haha but glad that you've gain your mood back =]

loveee ya *eemuackszz*

xoxo

EeMin

*~ im not gonna loose you, not again. ~*

A Sundae Without Its Ice-Cream

*~ seventeen candles ~*

Thanks for being part of my life! I never knew what evil was before this!

Gossip Girl

Once upon a time, there is a group of best friends

2 besties

One is taken

Another is in progress

She shines,

she's gorgeous,

she's kind,

she's smart,

she's funny,

she's caring,

she's helpful,

she's responsible

she's humble,

she's wild,

she's the-queen

She's sweet,

She's intelligent,

She's kind,

She's want-it-all

She's selfish,

She's naughty,

She's the-princess

One rainy day, they argued

She & Him too

Cool war among friends

She got emotional

Hoping for forgiveness

She got worried too

Forgiven each other

Back with the friends

Hang outs

Try clapping with one hand

Madly deeply in love

What's the bad news?

He's leaving.

Telling hearts out

The misunderstood Day

She with ''her'' enemy

She with ''her'' enemy

Disagreements occurs

They finally fight

Asking her back

Sweetly in love

War declared

She and ''the group''

Negotiating

What will happen next?

Still living in cold war

or

Seeking peace?

What is there to do now?

B turn right

S turn left

Leaving each other to our own desires?

B just wish to be with S till graduation

and after graduation

and after college

and working

and after marrying

and after having childrens

and after having grandchildren

till death take them a part.

Friendship back to the good olden days

And look forward to the bright future a head

* photos from FaceBook-Gossip Girl group.

This is an indirect story. Use your brain & your heart to figure it out.
Don't come looking for me, because I would never want to talk about it.
For those who are happy about this issue, YOU CAN GO BURN IN HELL

xoxo
Ee Min

Congratulation on your success. 

Before you go, would you like to take this knife out of my back. You'll probably need it again. x]

*~ enough about it ~*

Terrible Horrible Vegetable

*~ death is easier ~*

Yesterday after onlining, basketball section canceled.. SS2 plan also canceled.. Lantern at Sahara also canceled. Thought of going PohPui's house to return her calculator also gotta cancel.. It's the Canceling Day

At night after dinner I was so bored until I open my revision books and just stare at it.. 10pm I lied down on my bed till 11pm+ .. Father called me down to have some deserts.. There is where conflicts started.. 

11:45pm I told Father my phone is dead, so I sent it to SS2 to determine the problem. Then he started scolding and scolding and scolding == I didn't even say anything wrong.. You've no idea what he say and what's the meaning behind it. 

I don't know how to say or should I say it here... What I know is.. I got very hurt by his words.. and I'm not going to care of anything he want to do or care about. He is the man who gave birth to me and thats it. Nothing else links us together. Or that is already more than enough

To those people reading this or acting smart. Don't judge me by just reading all these summarize posts, you have no idea what actually happen and what has been causing it all these years. So just read and forget it. If you really care, then show it in a correct way. You can say I am a selfish girl or not a good daughter I don't care. But if you to step on my tail again, I'll show you what am I when I am pist.

Respect my privacy, and respect me. 

Then I'l do the same to you.

Know me. 

About 12:30am He finally finish scolding, I so wanted to walk off when he say he don't believe me. I so wanted to scold back when he talk about death is easier. I so wanted to get out of the house when his lecturing ends. I so wanted to bring up history when he say I'm in the wrong. I don't give a fucking damn on whatever he want to say or think about me. Whether he want to trust me or not, I don't care. Whatever I do from now onwards have nothing to do with him. Problems I face in the future I will settle it myself. 

I had enough.. more than enough of him. I woke up at 10:30am this morning, felt so empty I went back to dreamland.. Officially waking up at 1pm.. Found out that my eyes are so thickly swollen and there is a natural line of red eye linear on my eye.. So fad up.. I look like a panda bear and a vampire. 

Settling down my emotions yesterday, having asthma.. and he don't even care.. I don't need your concern anymore. Few more months till I'm 18th, waited for 17 years ady.. why not this few months?

Yesterday's midnight isn't sweet and round Moon Cake Festival, it's a Father-Arguing-Day. More like it. After dinner later, I'm going back Mantin to celebrate Moon Cake Fest. Did I mention when he was scolding me, my cousins are in the hall too? How embarrassing can that be? Because my phone spoiled and sent to check, he scolded me like I just killed my brother.

Anyway it's nearly 4pm now.. I'm going basketball.. hope to have some fresh air too.

3:50pm

xoxo

> Ee Min <

*~ 17 sky got to be 23 sky ~*

Waiting For The Next Sunrise

*~luckily I wasn't there~*

Yesterday I was called to go BookFest @ KLCC Convention Centre with my cousin's classmates. Was very exited about the bookfair when Ee Wen talked about it on sunday, because.. this was the first time I've heard of a bookfair~ and then when it is elabrorated with her classmates and stuff... My heart stumbble and then a headache . . .

Anyway end up till wednesday night, I figured out to not go.. Mainly because I haven really start studying/revising my works for trials and it's a outing with her classmates.. I don't mind, but there will be conflict and gossip if I go.

So since the bookfair is till 31Aug there is still 2days for me to plan.. Hmmm.. anyone interested?

Well.. I just felt glad that I didn't join them. x] blammie

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I was rude on the phone yesterday with you.

Was watching movie and your father is grumbling don't know what about the movie

I got so pist off

But I did fix things out at last and not get mad at your father

So.. yeah Sorry..

Enic

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For people who didn't notice things going around for Merdeka now..

Log on to www.15malaysia.com to watch short films about Malaysia

''Potong Saga'' is a hack of laughter

'' Chocolate'' is sweet.. *hearts* Shariffah Armani

and thanks alot to Maam. Yasmin

I've watch Flowers In The Pocket yesterday night

A slow moving, meaningful movie.

*I apologise if there is any wrong spelling for their names

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So hey people.. I won't be onlining much now.. Till after trials..

My aunt is coming back from China tonight, I'll be going to KLIA before dinner time.

Cleo and her parents is coming back soon probably next week.

Max is leaving soon to U.K

I'll have make several trips to KLIA nowadays

Hope they will feel fine coming back or leaving from KLIA

No joke on A H1N1

4:24pm

> lexis <

note : I'm going up Genting on Monday or maybe Sunday night. Will try my best to come back before 1st Sept for the trials.

another thing : I still have a Nandos voucher with me. Anyone miss Nandos? Text me..

*~no I'm really glad that I didn't join them~*

Go Under Cover and Sent Me Flowers

*~Because I love Roses~*

It's Me and You

Spit it out and everything would be clear

Just that few minutes we got to struggle

and

after that no more misunderstanding

I love this kind of friendship

You cover nothing towards each other

We'll be strong together

With each other's accompany and cheers

xoxo

> lexis <

1:42pm

*~Serena & Blair~*

a.n.g.e.l

been touch by you

Violin exam!! Is finally done!

@ PJ Hilton Hotel

am @ 10th floor West Wing
Should have take my piano exam too..

The examiner was EXTREMELY~ nice!
No kidding man. After all this year Susan Brown, the 1st ever female examiner I met to be so kind and sweet. Usually female/lady examiner are more strict. Like freakin! But this time, I read her testimonial. She attended several famous music schools. Learning from young age till she teaches/lectures/and also being a examiner. Her major intrusment is the piano next in line is the violin.

Imagine that! She so kind~ oh.. I felt in love with her~

I started off with the scales 1st, because students are advised to start with scales to warm up your fingers and not to get too little nervous of the atmosphere.

3 scales she gave me and I got wrong one. Which is the C sharp minor. I played C major. Luckily she stop me and gave me another chance.

For Arpeggios I was drooping into the well for that. Isn't really good. I remember the notes by fingers and not alhabetics notes. That. Is. Bad.

Dominant Sevenths start on a different key end on a different key. Always got me confuse. But she asked for the simplest one. So I got over it lightly.

Finally Diminished Sevenths the weird sounding one. Fingering 2-4-0-1-3 simplest one to memorize. Each key is the same fingering. I'm proud that I gone over the scales nicely.

Last time I use to hate scales and not practise them. But now.. I change the point of view. x]

3 Pieces.

1st piece : Bagatelle by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart- Detached, alot of crash notes and also 2 parts to play 3 different notes together. It's not hard but when you need to play it loud + correct notes + the notes isn't just next to each other. It's separated far a part. When you gotta keep up the speed with the piano and playing it loud and hard and also make sure it's the correct key.

Is ain't easy.

2nd piece : Sicilience by Maria-Theresia Paradis - This is a slow and sad song. It's easy to play it. x] I hope I scored high marks for this.

3rd piece : Buskin:No. 2 from Six Country Dances by Richard Rodney Bennett - Ooooo this one...... hard in catching the right timing with the piano accompaniment. PLUS I don't know where my mind is when it comes to the last ending of the song. I miss the timing and was stunt for 5seconds. sigh~ But overall this piece was fine. I hope the examiner don't put heavy hands on it x[

Aural

1st Sing the notes after the examiner played twice. Before she start, she asked and tested me whether I want the lower voice sounding or the upper one. She played a few notes to let me try. After that she compose the piece into lower sounding for me.

2nd Sing the notes given one a paper. I am bad in sight singing. Really bad. I'll down a note or high a note when it's descending. Really really bad. But she gave a several chances. At 1st she gave me the paper, tell me that I can just sing and she won't be listening till I'm prepared. She corrected me when I'm in the wrong note. Man! How can someone be so kind! gosh~ I really opened my eyes and ears today!

3rd Musical Features. The examiner will play one short piece and then you'll answer the questions. She asked the period of the piece and whether is major or minor piece. So I answered Romantic period & major piece. WTH it's so easy! I wanna hug her and kiss her and squash her and ... ah hem... sorry.

GOD~ she is so nice~ T__T if I fail...... I'm gonna go back to that 10th floor and jump down!

4th clap the rhythm. From the same short piece, examiner will play a short phrase and you'll gotta clap. After that answer whether it's 2 time, 3 times or 4time.

''And it's done! You have just finish your exam! Isn't it wonderful? =)''

Isn't she nice? I wanna stay in the room invisibly... xD My god... green is her theme. xD

I went in smiling like an insane idiot. Coming out laughing like an arse hole.

The door guy. As in the guy that take you into the room and register your name. He said to me when we are standing outside the door waiting to get in. He said ''you are the only student I see so far can still smile while standing in front of this door.''

LoL!!! Hahaha! Irene answered him '' she is smiling because she is nervous''

xD I blast into laughter after hearing what she say.

When I'm out of the room.. I was hooping and skipping into the waiting room with a huge smile on my face. I guess others parents and students there must have thought that I'm crazy~

Haha! Okay I think I wrote too much. And I don't think most of you people will understand the music words up there.. Lol.. But I don't think so! I still have loads to say! I shall continue!

You know.. When it comes to an exam like these in my life.. I'll normally close my self up and practice none stop for a few days. No outings, no shopping and stuffs. It will adjust my mood for the exam. Hmmm.. now my brother is back.. He will fight for computer. So. okay I'll stop here.

The exam results will be out only after 3 months.. Or even longer.

2:20pm

> lexis <

p/s : oh school! I'm coming!!!

Sugar Daddy~

Hell-o people!

After violin class yesterday night I went to watch this.. again haha~!!
*insert name* wanna watch ma.. so I go with him lo.. since nothing to do also..
After that go Kayu yam cha with Loooong + Amy + Evonne =)

I feel damn bad yesterday.. Cause
I can't go jogging with Wei Wei and Herng
When I wake up.. I can't make it to Mid Valley
Then she msg me go skating.. I can't also
Evonne call me to go Neway sing k.. Also can't

Patient people!! PATIENT!!!
I am going to change my piano and violin class time
Piano change to Wednesday evening
Violin on tuesday
But this only work after 2 weeks
May onwards I'm gonna be free on saturday

=)
that time if none of your'll call me out then I'll be angry..
Lol! hahaha

9:11pm
> lexis <

Chasing

Paishe la.. I went Ou at night yesterday.. It's like a last minute thing . . .
Some people or smart readers will know the main purpose I go there for what
With the excuse of buying a A3 File for my art project
I also went to visit Moo~ I mean.. not purposely.. As in . . .
The car was park at open space outside McD there..
So we were actually heading to Nikea Women next to Guardian
I didn't realise till we walk in.. haha
When we came out I saw this fella~

^^
peace~

xD

See the small Moo & the big Moo

Becasue a promoter convinced Amy to buy a pack of ice cream of ex-change of a little Moo~ So she did. ^^ Erm.. When she was paying at the cashier area.. I saw ''him'' but... he was busying playing a game with a little girl.. So tender

=.= Ee Min sat bai ady laaaa T.T I think a lot before asking Amy wanna go Ou or not.. Also though she didn't want to go.. But somebody gave me an idea.. So I say I'll give it a try.. But.... T.T aaawwwwww~ Wo hen bu gan xin lo . . . eeeyyiiiieeerrr ben tan yi ge

Zzzzz

3:36pm

> lexis <

I didn't know I skipped school

To you.. Once my dear darling [edited ]

Your mood swings are giving me big headaches
So if you were going to continue enjoying your mood swing
Then I'll ignore you
Just like what you're doing to me all the while

I think what she said before is true
'' she always show Ee Min her stinking face one wert''
Is that true? What you're doing all the while

It's like after the misunderstanding conflic till now
You never trust me.
Even during my special day,
You kept one smiling mask on your face
Just to pass the day with me

I don't need that.
Seriously.
If you're not sincere
If you don't feel like doing it
Then don't.
It irritates me when you do so


You girls seriosuly annoyed me
I didn't want to say this
But I can't stand it anymore
It's not that I don't want to mix with you girls
On what I observe and see with my eyes and ears

Your'll just lost your own selves
No respects to the guys?
Even the guys are afraid of your'll

I breath quite smoothly when you're not in
I don't wish that you're not in everyday
I just wish that you are you for you

Is it sound like I'm giving up our friendship?
I don't even think that we still own that ''friendship''

6:39pm
> lexis <

I might take back my words.

Maybe, I might not

So Long Goodbye

26th March 2009

10minutes before 8pm

Kayu

Tuition starts at 7:45pm
Is he there already?

I.. Know I'm thinking too much..
x]
I know I'm not suppose to..
I know I have to stop it..
I'm stopping it now..

He appear out of no where and I lost my lyrics
=.=

Not because of this la duh~

SO
I'm not going to think of him anymore
x]

10:04pm
> lexis <

This.. Is true and serious

I shouldn't be caring all these

Can you hear them?

They talk about us

Telling lies

Well, that's no surprise

Can you see them?

See right through them?

They have no shield

No secrets to reveal

It doesn't matter what they say

In the jealous games people play

Hey, Our lips are sealed

There's a weapon

Which we must use

In our defense:

Silence

Spreading rumors

So far from true

Dragged up from the underworld

Just like some precious pearl

Pay no mind to what they say

It doesn't matter anyway

Hush, my darling

Don't you cry

Crying angel

Forget their lies

It doesn't matter what they say

In the jealous games people play

It doesn't matter anyway

Our lips are sealed

Okay mitches & mustards~! Do I seriously have to repeat my self AGAIN?! WTF You ''mitches'' want to talk about Andrew & I, I don't give a damn.

During the period I did heard of things going on within you girls already. We put it smoothly thru the way in not touching or ''explaining'' our self to you girls. There is no use to explain and there is nothing to also.

You ''girls'' are judging us as what you SEE. You didn't touch it, you don't know the manners to knock on the door and ask straight what is happening to ''us''. Seriously. If you girls still continue spreading fuckin rumours around I'm not going to keep my flames once again. This is the second time I solve it quietly already.

YOU READ THIS, TELL OTHERS, EDIT IT-PRINT IT OUT PASTE ALL OVER THE SCHOOL, I DON'T CARE. Don't fuckin get into my road in these cases. We both are not in the wrong.

WHAT? He couple already then I can't be his friend already ar? WTH? It's COINCIDENT that when they're together I'm facing problems. And these kind of problems I'll be off better talking to a guy. We memang are friends who talk about problems. So? You are jealous that you can't in the group is it huh?!

I'm very piss now. I don't know what are you trying to do to me and my besties. At my point of view you're a 2 face girl and you are tryin to break me and her off. LOOK! There is no way you get thru it.

And as to you, my dear~ friend x] Your mouth ar............ I just feel like slapping you when I heard news. I don't give a damn on you. I just hate your that cute mother fuckin innocent face! Your smelly mouth and your damn character. It's pissing my off!!!

If you want to bring this thing up again I don't mind. I'm lazy to bargain with you anyway

YOU ARE DAMN ANNOYING

Sincerely

> ee min <

*Boys, stay away from this.

Happy Valentine

Liking him, maybe it's because he did everything for you.
But Loving him, wouldn't count a single thing that you did for him.
Liking him, maybe it's because his attitude is not bad
But Loving him, you will love even his worse attitude
Liking him, you will persuit him now to get under the rain
But loving him, you will have with him under the rain
Liking him, maybe it's because he is good
But Loving him, you can even love his weakness
Liking him, maybe it's because he listens to your problems
But Loving him, you'll still accept his complaints
Liking him, maybe you'll need a thousand reason
But Loving him, you don't need to have a single reason
You just need to love him, and he loves you.
You can't describe his pure liking.
Liking, is the surface of love.
Loving is deeply likes.

Post this to those you appreciate.
* Translate from chinese message*

4:40am
> lexis <

Urgh~~!!!

You know what actually I've put all the photos into my com and want to up load it into my blog, facebook, friendster and more. But because im still not familiar with my laptop so i gave up. Till I get to use my own computer only up load... Zzz sorry la cousin xP

P.E.A.C.E ooh~~

2:37AM
xoxo
> lexis <

saying~

I'M NOT AS WEAK AS YOU THOUGHT