*~ death is easier ~*
At night after dinner I was so bored until I open my revision books and just stare at it.. 10pm I lied down on my bed till 11pm+ .. Father called me down to have some deserts.. There is where conflicts started..
11:45pm I told Father my phone is dead, so I sent it to SS2 to determine the problem. Then he started scolding and scolding and scolding == I didn't even say anything wrong.. You've no idea what he say and what's the meaning behind it.
I don't know how to say or should I say it here... What I know is.. I got very hurt by his words.. and I'm not going to care of anything he want to do or care about. He is the man who gave birth to me and thats it. Nothing else links us together. Or that is already more than enough
To those people reading this or acting smart. Don't judge me by just reading all these summarize posts, you have no idea what actually happen and what has been causing it all these years. So just read and forget it. If you really care, then show it in a correct way. You can say I am a selfish girl or not a good daughter I don't care. But if you to step on my tail again, I'll show you what am I when I am pist.
Respect my privacy, and respect me.
Then I'l do the same to you.
Know me.
About 12:30am He finally finish scolding, I so wanted to walk off when he say he don't believe me. I so wanted to scold back when he talk about death is easier. I so wanted to get out of the house when his lecturing ends. I so wanted to bring up history when he say I'm in the wrong. I don't give a fucking damn on whatever he want to say or think about me. Whether he want to trust me or not, I don't care. Whatever I do from now onwards have nothing to do with him. Problems I face in the future I will settle it myself.
I had enough.. more than enough of him. I woke up at 10:30am this morning, felt so empty I went back to dreamland.. Officially waking up at 1pm.. Found out that my eyes are so thickly swollen and there is a natural line of red eye linear on my eye.. So fad up.. I look like a panda bear and a vampire.
Settling down my emotions yesterday, having asthma.. and he don't even care.. I don't need your concern anymore. Few more months till I'm 18th, waited for 17 years ady.. why not this few months?
Yesterday's midnight isn't sweet and round Moon Cake Festival, it's a Father-Arguing-Day. More like it. After dinner later, I'm going back Mantin to celebrate Moon Cake Fest. Did I mention when he was scolding me, my cousins are in the hall too? How embarrassing can that be? Because my phone spoiled and sent to check, he scolded me like I just killed my brother.
Anyway it's nearly 4pm now.. I'm going basketball.. hope to have some fresh air too.
3:50pm
xoxo
> Ee Min <
*~ 17 sky got to be 23 sky ~*
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