Top Secret 

*~ I've Always Wanted You ~*

Sunday 1st Nov 2009 

1st thing 1st!

17 & a half day more to SPM. I swear, for this few more days, I'm gonna lock myslef up in my room and study. Cause just now got somebody made a deal with me. Hahaha! ssshhhhh.

Woke up about 7am this morning, brushed my teeth, got so bored because there isn't breakfast on the table. I did something really crazy. Because I was blurring, all thanks to another sweet dream. No, not in the sarcastic way! It's really sweet, I'm with him and we were in his car heading to somewhere for lunch. We chat like there is no barrier between us, we talked freely, and happily. How I wish that dream were to come true one day. =/

Okay, so what was the crazy thing I did? I was in my shorts, and a baby t-shirt sitting in the garden with my leg are close to my chest, and my hands are hugging my legs, like totally emo type. After a few minutes, I.... sat down next to the pool, soothing my legs in the water. And then... I just dumped my self in. THE POOL!! Oh God.. I was conscious that time! I know what was I doing. And still?! I just did it. I hold my breathe under water for some time, slowly letting oxygen go.

Felt like it's so damn long now, till my brain fighting with my legs saying I'm such a dumb person, I jumped up to the surface. OMG! It's really scary, shocking, and crazy.. but fun ^^ Hello? I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO SWIM. Alright? So no joke man, my parents are in their room that hour, my brothers? Still sleeping of course.After that I just let my body float on the surface.. Sun bathed for a while. Go under water again.. then walked up to my room, leaving wet foot prints behind me. =/ Took a hot shower bathe, packed, leave home about 8:30am plus.

Spented about 45minutes at Nilai Memorial Park, obviously I stupidly cried. LoL. After reaching Mantin, we went to the stall we always went to have our favorite breakfast & kopi bing. ^^ Unload the car, packed, prayed at home, then we went the church. It has been quite some years I didn't pay respect to my christian ancestors already. I can't really remember since when.. hmmm. Nvm. Lighting candles, burning my fingers, getting more and more wax on my hand, sun bathing~ etc. Went back home, chilled, play mahjoong, have lunch, mahjoong continues then Mom & Dad packed and leave to Genting. It seem that Dad have booked a room again. =.=  Yeah, they two really need to have some time together. But........ I don't hope to have another little devil in the house *sweats*

End up, Bryan, Marcus & I got to go back PJ with Amy and her Mom. From 4pm waited till 7pm. -.- How tiring can that be huh? Reached PJ safely around 9pm, they brought us to SS2, Wei Sek Kai to have dinner, after that I went home to get ready to go yamcha with my bunch of cousins again. Ever since Dragon have his snake-growing-on-body thingy, we talked less, and meet less. So now is the time to get along again ^^

Went home, bathe, change, then went over to Amy's house. Dragon & Amy plus her father was scrubbing the floor that time. Uncle's old car black oil is licking. Dragon really enjoy scrubbing the oily floor, maybe he'll pass thru interview for Cinderella's character next season. Hahaha

Thanks to you two, now the floor is sparkling, shining and it reflects too  xD

It 11pm already~ no patience waiting for Amy to change her cloths =.=

We went over to Murni ^^

Man : Minum apa?

Me : Hmm.. beside yang honeydew special dan watermelon special.. ada apa lagi yang special?

Man : Err.. you mau apa? Cuba I Love You lah!

Me, Evonne, Amy, Dragon : HUH?

Me : Haha! Itu consists of apa? O.O

Man : Ada lah! Apa macam macam pun ada, Semua mix.

Me : SEMUA mix???

Man : Ada 7up, pepsi, sprite ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ etc

Me : Ooohh.. eer....

Dragon : Jing gan lei you shiong chi soh lei zhao ji~!

Me : Hahaha. selain itu?

Man : I Miss You!

Me, E, A, D : HAA??

Me :  Tak pe la. Tak pe. Kasih yang jus special aje.

Man : Jus ada, mango, honeydew, watermelon, ribena,~

Me : Ah! Kasih ribena special! Dah~ boleh!

Man : Ah. OK. Makan?

Me : Err.. itu apa.. uhm!!

D : Pasta?

Me :  Ya! Itu spagetti ada apa?

Man : Ada bologiese, ada carbonara, ada special

Me : Ah! Special ada apa?

Man : Ada sotong, ikan, bologiese lah..!

Me : Ah? Er. okay lah! Mau yang tu!

Man : OK spagetti special, ribena special. You?

D : Lou Su Fun yang claypot tu, satu. Sirup ice!

Stuck the whole bottle of Ribena Special down my tummy just now.. tummy sing ku le =(

Nah! See! This is Bologiese Special. Pedas dao yao si!! 

Got chili padi. Eat until half way then I dead already. 

4 big prawns,which I can't eat.

1 scallop.

1 piece of fish, burned already one.

2 huge sotong, inside got fried sotong. 

Beside the sotong and the spagetti, other not nice xP

Guess how much does it cost. 

Dragon become kind already. It freaks me out. Sometimes. Haha. He see until I wanna die cannot die like that then he change with me ^^ 1st I thought he wanna try and take bite only. But he started eating like it's some mihoon soup. -.- So kind to exchange food with me. Plus, I like this dish very much too, just wanna try something new. =[ too naughty become like that d. Haha.xP And because it's pricy, he paid my bill too. uh.. huh.... he must have did something wrong thats why so good to me nowadays. Haaa! GG ady! I go gorek! See what you've done! Haha

Hehe. All Heroes also got weak point one. Too spicy, too much for Dragon already. Scared he hurt his tummy later, so stop eating. Haha. Stubbing the piece of bakar fish. xD

I eat until clean clean ne ^^ But are at Wei Sek Kai already then eat again. Really growing side ways already. Hmm.. since gonna stress with books right. Then I should stress with food also! ^^

Dragon xiang ta leh.. Haha.

Cool,

Quiet,

Playful,

Cheeky,

Obediant,

Responsible,

Hard working,

Smart,

Kind,

Gentlement, at times!

Haha blekk!

Like a crystal ball. Look stable, but actually it's very fragile. =/

I remember last time when we were young, our parents place us at Amy's house before they go working. Thats why him & I grow up together, get burned by hot water together, ate cookies together, play water together, go kinder garden together, most paiseh is when all others babies are asleep we running up and down playing catching, AND! gummy rings! We use to love to eat those. Haha. We play masak-masak, you ruined my barbie doll, i destroyed your trucks and robots, haha it's really memorable =D

Mom & Dad is coming back later with breakfast, so I'm not going to school, no transport though. ^^

xoxo

Ee Min

note :  he is my dearest cousin of all male cousin, you 2 guys have many similarity. =]

lovesssss you both~ muackszz!

*~ But Is Forbidden ~*

Terrible Horrible Vegetable

*~ death is easier ~*

Yesterday after onlining, basketball section canceled.. SS2 plan also canceled.. Lantern at Sahara also canceled. Thought of going PohPui's house to return her calculator also gotta cancel.. It's the Canceling Day

At night after dinner I was so bored until I open my revision books and just stare at it.. 10pm I lied down on my bed till 11pm+ .. Father called me down to have some deserts.. There is where conflicts started.. 

11:45pm I told Father my phone is dead, so I sent it to SS2 to determine the problem. Then he started scolding and scolding and scolding == I didn't even say anything wrong.. You've no idea what he say and what's the meaning behind it. 

I don't know how to say or should I say it here... What I know is.. I got very hurt by his words.. and I'm not going to care of anything he want to do or care about. He is the man who gave birth to me and thats it. Nothing else links us together. Or that is already more than enough

To those people reading this or acting smart. Don't judge me by just reading all these summarize posts, you have no idea what actually happen and what has been causing it all these years. So just read and forget it. If you really care, then show it in a correct way. You can say I am a selfish girl or not a good daughter I don't care. But if you to step on my tail again, I'll show you what am I when I am pist.

Respect my privacy, and respect me. 

Then I'l do the same to you.

Know me. 

About 12:30am He finally finish scolding, I so wanted to walk off when he say he don't believe me. I so wanted to scold back when he talk about death is easier. I so wanted to get out of the house when his lecturing ends. I so wanted to bring up history when he say I'm in the wrong. I don't give a fucking damn on whatever he want to say or think about me. Whether he want to trust me or not, I don't care. Whatever I do from now onwards have nothing to do with him. Problems I face in the future I will settle it myself. 

I had enough.. more than enough of him. I woke up at 10:30am this morning, felt so empty I went back to dreamland.. Officially waking up at 1pm.. Found out that my eyes are so thickly swollen and there is a natural line of red eye linear on my eye.. So fad up.. I look like a panda bear and a vampire. 

Settling down my emotions yesterday, having asthma.. and he don't even care.. I don't need your concern anymore. Few more months till I'm 18th, waited for 17 years ady.. why not this few months?

Yesterday's midnight isn't sweet and round Moon Cake Festival, it's a Father-Arguing-Day. More like it. After dinner later, I'm going back Mantin to celebrate Moon Cake Fest. Did I mention when he was scolding me, my cousins are in the hall too? How embarrassing can that be? Because my phone spoiled and sent to check, he scolded me like I just killed my brother.

Anyway it's nearly 4pm now.. I'm going basketball.. hope to have some fresh air too.

3:50pm

xoxo

> Ee Min <

*~ 17 sky got to be 23 sky ~*

So Long, and Goodbye

*~ bad news ~*

I woke up at 1pm just now.. 
Alarm was Evonne's text message..
Asking me to go Mid Valley later to catch a movie..


I went down stairs to use the phone
Seeing all my aunts and my uncles is on the dining table
Chatting.. discussing.. sound really unpleasant..
I reach the phone.. 


Date is at 4pm later on.. 
After I hanging up the phone.. 
I heard.. that..
My uncle that lives in Johor Bahru..
Has pass away in the morning. 


The news came this way..
8am When Aunt Regina, Amy, and Marcus is heading to Evonne's house
They were going to Singapore for 2 days 1 night.
When Evonne was getting into the car. 
A call from Johor and the whole plan is canceled..


Aunt Cindy, was planning to go up Genting in the evening 
Because later at night 10pm Genting is having fire works..
For Hari Raya 


After that, I got a date later on some more..
When a relative pass away, should I be movie-ing or having fun swimming?


I don't know should I go or not..
It's odd..
But I never been seeing my uncle for.. 3 years? 4? 


Mom just tell me something..
I don't need to feel sorry or sad about it.
She called me to forget it, after prayers.


9 of my uncles and aunties went down to Johor just now
Because he's not really ''important'' so we childrens don't need to follow down..


So later I'm going for swimming, movie-ing, and trimming my hair at Mid Valley
hmm... no wonder I don't know what are you singing to me yesterday night la
It's SuJu's new song is it.. lols.. damn pro
I haven even hear it then you can sing and dance to it already..
Lol.. yeah I know.. I get it now.


But I'm not palnning to date, after SPM then we'll talk about it
x] thank you, for being so caring.


3:35pm
xoxo
> Ee Min <

*~ after every rain, there will be bright sky ~*

Joining Stars

*~how to do so?~*

31st Aug 2009

Went up Genting in the morning

Meet my brothers and Evonne @ Resort Hotel

Just got boring to wait for them

Marcus & Mom

The view of the theme park at the lift

Yes, we got so boring 

We went to indoor theme park

Play until PK already then go back hotel

xD

The game's coupon 

Evonne

The boys

And the.. don't know what animal we catched

Hahahaha~!!!

Lunch @ the mamak below cable car

@ Resort Hotel this is the room number

Aunt Regina & Cindy went back PJ with Evonne

Leaving this room for my family. 

But.. sorry

I don't like to use a room that is not cleared after used.

I liked this..

Haha

Waiting for Marcus to packed their things and move to Highland Hotel

This is the view from Highland room

Just next to this

Father taking nap

Brian watching tv

=.= The Incredible 

I got so bored.. 

So I went to visit the bathroom

Found out that it's so awesome 

I plant to take a hot bathe 

Haha! Got drink some more

Just like my home,

Take a long time to fill up the bathtub

See?

So I eat apple lo..

Provided in the room one

Wee~ fresh fresh

Behind that wall is the bathroom tau..

So cool

Going out to have dinner~

Watch closely 

It's the cable car's line all the way down

Sun setting

@ Pizza Hut

at 1st we wanted to eat at a Chinese restaurant

But gotta wait like damn long

So we went here lo

Brian & Dad

Marcus sms-ing

Island Supreme 

After dinner Mom & Dad leave us to our self to jalan jalan

and they go back to the hotel 

So we went for ice cream

2 flavour con RM5

Going back Highland

Brought some tidbits on the way back

Look at them la =.=''

hehe~

Highland's room number

12th floor 

O.O

Boring again~

Parents went casino

Brian doing some quiz thingy

Marcus too

and I broke my lollipop

My stuffs

See what I mean?

You can open the bathroom door and watch tv

Snooker~

Neil Robertson

He is SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and he is so cool!!

He won a table by himself.

Like no chance for this challenger

But stupidly his last black ball didn't aim nicely and it didn't went in

Luckily another guy can't do it too

At last he won and get into Semi Final

Going back loo~

Highland Hotel Receptionist

Lobby

See that small boy playing with the door

Bye bye le~

on this month 27th 

I'm going up here again

When there is pictures
There won't be much talking


1:16pm
xoxo
> Ee Min <

*~trying to join the stars~*