Waiting For A Miracle To Happen

Waiting For A MiRacLe To Happen

*~ between you and I ~*

cheri. 

Exam is tiring.

Exam is stressful.

Exam sucks.

Gosh! cheri.

What had happen in silents?

What had lead us to be a part?

cheri. 

Oh cheri. 

How can it be true?

Am I not the one for you?

I'm sorry, cheri.

Exams makes me lost my mind.

My mood swings are giving you a whiplash.

But, cheri.

Don't you see?

I'm not liking your footsteps.

Pay some attentions to me.

cheri. My dear, cheri.

Come back, please try.

Or give some fair moments to both of us.

cheri, sweet cheri.

I'm trying to live a life my way.

Don't you see?

It's hard to breathe.

Atmosphere is never the same cheri.

Sincerity isn't there.

Faith isn't there.

True colors are kept.

How can I open my heart

When there can be an arrow shooting 

At any angle at any time?

Oh cheri don't you see?

cheri, I'm letting it down.

cheri, I'm serious now.

It's not that I didn't try, cheri.

Dealing with SPM really kills.
I had not enough sleeps nowadays, and worse of all----nightmares.
=.=
Guess, I will most probably be going back Mid after my papers. sigh.

xoxo
Ee Min

*~ I don't think You're Mine ~*

ps : know the time when this post is publish?

Terrible Horrible Vegetable

*~ death is easier ~*

Yesterday after onlining, basketball section canceled.. SS2 plan also canceled.. Lantern at Sahara also canceled. Thought of going PohPui's house to return her calculator also gotta cancel.. It's the Canceling Day

At night after dinner I was so bored until I open my revision books and just stare at it.. 10pm I lied down on my bed till 11pm+ .. Father called me down to have some deserts.. There is where conflicts started.. 

11:45pm I told Father my phone is dead, so I sent it to SS2 to determine the problem. Then he started scolding and scolding and scolding == I didn't even say anything wrong.. You've no idea what he say and what's the meaning behind it. 

I don't know how to say or should I say it here... What I know is.. I got very hurt by his words.. and I'm not going to care of anything he want to do or care about. He is the man who gave birth to me and thats it. Nothing else links us together. Or that is already more than enough

To those people reading this or acting smart. Don't judge me by just reading all these summarize posts, you have no idea what actually happen and what has been causing it all these years. So just read and forget it. If you really care, then show it in a correct way. You can say I am a selfish girl or not a good daughter I don't care. But if you to step on my tail again, I'll show you what am I when I am pist.

Respect my privacy, and respect me. 

Then I'l do the same to you.

Know me. 

About 12:30am He finally finish scolding, I so wanted to walk off when he say he don't believe me. I so wanted to scold back when he talk about death is easier. I so wanted to get out of the house when his lecturing ends. I so wanted to bring up history when he say I'm in the wrong. I don't give a fucking damn on whatever he want to say or think about me. Whether he want to trust me or not, I don't care. Whatever I do from now onwards have nothing to do with him. Problems I face in the future I will settle it myself. 

I had enough.. more than enough of him. I woke up at 10:30am this morning, felt so empty I went back to dreamland.. Officially waking up at 1pm.. Found out that my eyes are so thickly swollen and there is a natural line of red eye linear on my eye.. So fad up.. I look like a panda bear and a vampire. 

Settling down my emotions yesterday, having asthma.. and he don't even care.. I don't need your concern anymore. Few more months till I'm 18th, waited for 17 years ady.. why not this few months?

Yesterday's midnight isn't sweet and round Moon Cake Festival, it's a Father-Arguing-Day. More like it. After dinner later, I'm going back Mantin to celebrate Moon Cake Fest. Did I mention when he was scolding me, my cousins are in the hall too? How embarrassing can that be? Because my phone spoiled and sent to check, he scolded me like I just killed my brother.

Anyway it's nearly 4pm now.. I'm going basketball.. hope to have some fresh air too.

3:50pm

xoxo

> Ee Min <

*~ 17 sky got to be 23 sky ~*

If There Is No Secrets, They Won't Be Gossiping

*~Lovely Messages~*

Relationship are like glass,

Sometimes it's better to leave them broken 

then try to hurt yourself putting it back together

*The kid opposite my house is having a fun time with his dad,

and I'm alone in this big big house...

29th Aug 2009

After logging off my computer yesterday night, I went to get ready to go OU to have my dinner with my godparents and my godgrandfather.. Max came along too. We went Dragon-i.. Reached there about 10pm so paiseh.. So late already 

Anyway we had a very happy dinner there, my mood wasn't really nice. My parents going back Mantin without me 1st, then Max fetched me back.. all the way to Seremban.. with his cute cute little Mazda.. Reached hometown, about midnight, Mom suggested Max to stay over and head back in the morning. 

So me and him slept in one room, my family sleep in another room. Because he and I don't use to sleep on the lower range of a double decker bed.. So we slept on a queen size bed together. For god sake nothing happen alright. It was 2:30am when we get on bed. I found myself hard to fall asleep for half an hour.. then somebody next to me started singing some weird lullaby song I've never heard before. Then don't know how I fall asleep already.

30th Aug 2009

Mom woke us up at 7:30am asking us wanna go out to have breakfast or not.. Pleaseee let me sleep~ then we slept. Till 9am++ woke up have breakfast then get ready for prayers. That dumb dumb didn't went back after breakfast. He stayed till we ended our prayers, and before lunch. Lols.. While we are getting ready for prayers, he and the boys went behind the river there for fun. 

Overall at Mantin was busying.. Reached PJ about 4:30pm++.. Faster get ready to go Mid Valley met up with Poh Pui & her boyfriend. Dramatically I was late. I reach Mid about 5:30pm when I told Poh Pui I'll reach about 5pm. Such an lousy friend. I felt awful when I reach there. I can't get a cab from my house don't know why. Firstly that cab can't drive thru the guard house. Secondly I always heard that they don't have a cab for my house address too complicated. wtf? So it make me wake down to Universiti LRT Station to get a cab from there. 

I quickly called Poh Pui once I reach the entrance of Mid Valley. So we'll meet at Nandos straight. Yeah there is table bookings for Buka Puasa. It was quite difficult for me to have 3 seats that time. Luckily the manager allow me to have a table. I waited for Poh Pui about 20minutes for her to come from The Gardens.

Telling myself 

''It's my fault that I'm late. I deserve to be waiting for them. No matter how long they takes, I have no rights to be angry.''

Glad that they came, using not more than half an hour. Because if they don't I think they will take away my table. The restaurant is fully booked by Malays.

Yes the seats were empty.

One day my brain asked me

''Why are you sending messages to that person who is not messaging you?''

But my little heart said to my brain

''You need messages but I need a friend.'

I saw this on the back of the menu..

Sadly.. my father didn't thought me this.

But I still keep my promise don't I?

Was so full after eating..

My lunch was 3 dished of vege, 2 dishes of meat, 1 fish, 1 soup

wahhh.. imagine that

I can become a pig if my dinner is like this every day.

Mid Valley deco for Raya.

After having dinner at Nandos, we 3 headed off to GSC.. checking out what time does Orphan have in line. Disappointed when we reach there.. it was 6:58pm and the show starts at 6:45pm. awwh.. nvm.. we'll go jalan jalan.. 

Walking towards Voir, I bump into Kah Hoo and his family.. He text me that he was at Mid earlier when I was having dinner.. But I really didn't expect that we'll bump into each other.. After all, Mid Valley is so big right.. Lols

After the walking and ''entertaining people'' we set our self down to this place. 

Are you curious what does ''entertaining people'' means? Well according to Miss Liew Poh Pui, it means sort-of close to window shopping. You go in the shop, look see look see, try out try out, talk to the assistance then walk out. That is an entertainment for those promoter.To let them have a chance to talk while it's too boring. 

Lol!! I really fok jor Poh Pui =.=''

I ordered a cup of Irish coffee and the couple's Blue Ocean

And their mango fountain

Do you know whats A B C D E F G ?

A Boy Can Do Everything For Girl

Now reverse the order, can you guess the full form of G F E D C B A? 

Girls Forgets Everything Done Catches (new) Boy Again.

It takes me half an hour to read all your messages.
Got a call from Mom, telling me to go home to SS2 after finish my outing with Poh Pui. So 3 of us took a  cab back to our house. Poh Pui drop me off first. When I reach my house gate.. I realise that I didn't bring my this-house's keys out. Smart right? Very very smart. So I called a cab to go back Pantai.. =.=
I need a new mouse and a new key board for my computer.


12:02pm
xoxo
> Ee Min <


note : share the laughter, share the tears

*~happy merdeka~*

Go Under Cover and Sent Me Flowers

*~Because I love Roses~*

It's Me and You

Spit it out and everything would be clear

Just that few minutes we got to struggle

and

after that no more misunderstanding

I love this kind of friendship

You cover nothing towards each other

We'll be strong together

With each other's accompany and cheers

xoxo

> lexis <

1:42pm

*~Serena & Blair~*

It's All Your Imagination

"~* Because I'm Not Your Little Sweet Princess.. at least not anymore. *~"

To people I call sort-of friends

You may think you know me..

You may even though that it's me..

Think again.

The more you hurt me,

The stronger I become

5:04pm

> Ee Min <

p/s : come come lai shang hai wo.

ru guo ni yao dan de hua. shui shi huan ying ni de da jia guan ling.

Your Dream Girl

不够成熟

Woke up at 1pm today.. Poh Pui's message was the alarm clock..

'' Min! xD Let's go eat Nandos at Mid Valley! The voucher gonna due date already!!''

''Huh?? oh.. erm.. wait ah.. I just woke up..''

''Haha? Then go back to sleep first ba''

We waited for the bus for 20minutes under the sunny sun..

waaa.. the new bus stop shade they made useless one lo

I got so fad up with cutting the chicken, and look what I did.. =.= ruined my breakfast..

I was amaze when I saw Poh Pui's plate is empty and mine is still like this.

Because I'm doing the talkings and story telling...

Even more amaze seeing her chicken is slized into 3 pieces.. yeah left the bone only..

She must be very hungry.. haha!!

I have no idea how did she did that.. she showed me how.. and my mouth was widely open..

=.= last time I should to be faster than her..

Don't know what is wrong today.. hands don't want to work.. and!!!

My left hand got a little hurted while cutting the chicken.. sien laaa..

Like that also can..

Sunday's tea time

Pancakes, with condense milk

And look what did Bryan do with my bear

Qiu Qiu become Harry Potter

and then look like Jay Chou in that basketball show

Lols~

Today when I walk out to the bus stop

Finding the sky so clear

This picture is taken by my phone

Nice?

and then it was bloody hot

Went Mid Valley just to eat Nandos because of the voucher..

Tmr Nandos again..

The due date is on 31st Aus..

Hang around then we went MPH

She was looking for refill ink..

When I'm playing with teddy bears x]

and look what she wrote while testing the pens

so adorable..

=.=''

before going home..

I went to her house to borrow something

and look!!!

Poh Pui got the tickets to prom already..

Look at this theme..

any ideas?

No lo.. I don't.

********************************

Is this what you call short summer?

It was fun hanging out with friends again.. Instead of staying at home for few days..

It feels like quarantine..

By2 - Not Matured Enough

I can't meet your expectations

I really ain't thinking too much

Is leaving really a liberation?

Is there a need to try for a thousand times before we know?

Really ain't sad, smilling as I wave to you

If there comes a day, when we are fated to meet again

Will you remember the eternity we once talked about?

Wonder Girl - This Time

Grazing by of the parting memories

Upon pain and comfort I erased them

When the night that's been soaked in black passes

And the sun is shining in my windowsill

If you're not there, I might cry again

I hope you don't become a painful memory to me

Like the men that have grazed by me in the past

The world without you will be like a terrible darkness

Please acknowledge my love

Se7en - Promise

When I was confused about a love

When I went through hard time with my memories

When my life was filled with boring days

You always made them special

You're the one who only turns to me

You're the one who's always next to me

But I've never been able to tell you how I feel

I've never felt nervous around you

But after watching over you and laughing with you

I think I've grown attached to you

I've always walked each day alone

But now

I want to walk while holding your hand

As you watch over me closer than my shadow

It might be a little late

But I'll leave traces of him behind

From my sight

It's all for you

Until the day I close my eyes

It'll be you and me for eternity

I want us to be together

Closer than our shadows are

I'll stay by your side to watch over you

I'll only love you

I will only love you

I only wrote those meaningful ones and from my heart's lyrics.. it's not full lyrics..

Hehe.. lazy to continue ady..

9:44pm

> lexis <

p/s : it's just notes..

oh! and I brought new ear rings today x]

U-Know???

This morning at 12:40am

I had a long conversation with my father..

I was painting my nails at the living room

And asked my dad on the dining table about KL Equitorial Hotel.

It's prom anyway..

Me : D ah.. KL Equitorial hao wan de ma?

Dad : Huh? Equitorial ah? Hen jiu de wo..

Me : Shi oh? hmmm..

Dad : Zou mo?

Me : Oh.. mei you la.. wo men de prom zhai na li zu sing ma..

Dad : Oh..

Me : *dot dot dot*

Dad : ni gen shui qu oh?

Me : O.. wo ban shang de yi wei dong xue lo..

Dad : shui?

Me : =.= yin du ren..

Dad : gen ta hen hao da?

Me : Erm.. bu shuan lo..

Dad : then ni you gen ta qu?

Me : ying wei wo mei you prom date ma.. ta you mei you ma.. then wo men bi chi zhuo bi chi de prom date lo..

Dad : na li ke yi jiang gan chui de??!

Me : uhmm *dot dot dot*

Dad : mei you ren pei ni qu meh? zhen yang qu oh??

Me : err... yi qi ta teksi kua..

Dad : TEKSI ah??? hui la leh??

Me : err.. yi yang lo.. bu ran kan shui ke yi zhai wo hui la....

Dad : you mei you gao chuo oh?!

Me : he.. he.. he..

Dad : Equitorial ah?

Me : em.. dui...

Dad : uhm.. bu hao wan de wo..

Me : gei qian liao lo!! bu hao wan duo yao qu lo.. yi jing zhui hou yi nian liao..

Dad : uhm...

Mom : still don't sleep ah? tmr no work ah?

Me : =.='' yaaaaaa laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa xP

Dad : qu shui jiao liao.. prom de shi, gai tian zhai shuo.

Me : oh.......

wa liao eh..

in between he still talk about what we drink la, eat la, deco la, who is the entertainer la..

pheww.. don't know how to answer.. zzzzzzzzzzz

******************************************

Sorry. I'm really very sorry.

I'll stop.

I know I should.

Should not break the line..

1:44pm

> lexis <

p/s : bi-a-ne

這樣不公平

累了 照慣例努力清醒著 也照慣例想妳了

好怕一放心睡了 心跳在夢中不聽話的 就停止了

聽著 呼吸像浪潮拍動著 越美麗越讓我忐忑

我還能珍惜什麼 如果我連自己的脈搏 都難掌握

如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命

留下妳錯愕哭泣 我冰冷身體 擁抱不了妳

想到我讓深愛的妳 人海孤獨旅行

我會恨自己 如此狠心

如果我變成回憶 終於沒那麼幸運

沒機會白著頭髮 蹣跚牽著妳 看晚霞落盡

漫長時光 總有一天 妳會傷心痊癒

若有人可以 讓他陪妳 我不怪妳

快樂 什麼時候會結束呢 哪一刻是最後一刻

想把妳緊緊抱著 可知妳是我生命中的 最捨不得

如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命

留下妳錯愕哭泣 我冰冷身體 擁抱不了妳

想到我讓深愛的妳 人海孤獨旅行

我會恨自己 如此狠心

如果我變成回憶 終於沒那麼幸運

沒機會白著頭髮 蹣跚牽著妳 看晚霞落盡

漫長時光 總有一天 妳會傷心痊癒

若有人可以 讓他陪妳 我不怪妳

如果我變成回憶 最怕我太不爭氣

頑固地賴在空氣 霸佔妳心裡 每一吋縫隙

連累依然愛我的妳 痛苦承受失去

這樣不公平 請妳盡力 把我忘記

note : read colour to colour and everything in between