To you.. Once my dear darling [edited ]

Your mood swings are giving me big headaches
So if you were going to continue enjoying your mood swing
Then I'll ignore you
Just like what you're doing to me all the while

I think what she said before is true
'' she always show Ee Min her stinking face one wert''
Is that true? What you're doing all the while

It's like after the misunderstanding conflic till now
You never trust me.
Even during my special day,
You kept one smiling mask on your face
Just to pass the day with me

I don't need that.
Seriously.
If you're not sincere
If you don't feel like doing it
Then don't.
It irritates me when you do so


You girls seriosuly annoyed me
I didn't want to say this
But I can't stand it anymore
It's not that I don't want to mix with you girls
On what I observe and see with my eyes and ears

Your'll just lost your own selves
No respects to the guys?
Even the guys are afraid of your'll

I breath quite smoothly when you're not in
I don't wish that you're not in everyday
I just wish that you are you for you

Is it sound like I'm giving up our friendship?
I don't even think that we still own that ''friendship''

6:39pm
> lexis <

I might take back my words.

Maybe, I might not

Today just today

We have basketball again for the girls during PJK lesson this morning.
I was a little blur this morning. Till the game start.
Played like tai ka jie... You know why..?
Because majority doesn't know how to play..
So P.p & I was shouting all the way..
Telling them what to do next.
But ''unluckily'' Pn. Kluang's form3 class was next to the court
She saw how P.p & I played.
After lesson she called P.p to write down the girls name that can play nicely
Going in for MSSD.
I was like O.M.G
I was happy. Because this was what I've dream of.
Experience MSSD Basketball one day.
So yeah I think I'm gonna give a hit in it. =]

Photo taking section.
Our hair........ O.M.G
All pin up. Like botak fella only.
The guys specially.. Damn funny xD
Jing Wei look like Doreamon nia
Hahaha~!
Everyone wasn't happy with it.
Because of our hair~~~

Chinese Class
1st 20 minutes of the class
I seriously have no idea what-the-hell is teacher teaching.
She is mumbling with some C.N.Y greating words.
Saying we cannot say this, cannot say that..
Lol.
Yee Man & I is totally b-l-u-r
xD
At last.. she was readin from a newspaper cutting. =.=

10:05pm
> lexis <
IwanttowatchInkHeart&Outlander&[Underworld (Ithink)]

In sequence

I'm giving up very soon.

Just be friends..?

In the title of 'couple'

Gives pressure to me.

I'm s.a.d

I'm down.

I can't help myself.

For not feeling sad.

I'm lucky to have you baobei

The one and only person who understands me.

Cardiovascular feel heavy & pain.

Eyes are watery every second.

One day I feltm extremely happy.

The next day I felt so lost.

Family problems are getting in the way.

I got mess up by every one of them.

Too many life to suite in.

Too many rules to obey.

5:23pm

> lexis <

Imlettinggo

Make me smile.

I didn't ask to be a princess.
But hey! If the crown fits!

Look it's Garfield. He wants to eat my wedges.. Shoo shoo~ go away!


This is my new friend ChenChen. Because it's cute and look delicious so Pn. Teh & a form6 guy in Ko-op introduced me to it. x] It's hard for you to meet it now. Because he is in my tummy ady ^.^ Probably already reach the big big dirty longkang. Sorry la. I know it's cute and you want it too. Never mind before CNY I'll intro you guys some x)

I'm absent in school this morning. Reach home around 11am. Mom, Brian & I went Tropicana City Mall. After jalan-ing around for 15minutes we stop by Colours. I tried this. What do you think? Hmm.. Too mature xp

What about this then? Well I brought this at RM79.90 Colours. For pre-CNY lunch at Dragon-i, Mid Valley with my aunts [ mom side ] My siblings are coming back!! 2 family from London, 1 family at Dubai and also 1 family at Switzerland this year. So it's gonna be a big big reunion x] I~~love them~!!

After that we went here. It's around 4pm++ already something is rumbling. xD Early dinner.

TomYam soup + Gong Bou Chicken Rice + Yam ice cream + Ice coffee.

Price is reasonable. Good service. Tasty food. *specially tomyam!* Nice place to be in. =] So try out this place if you're gonna visit T.C.M C=

Yeh man~!!! While I was passing by Victoria Music I spot this! The salesman inside didn't even notice I took photo of it while he was standing outside too xD

TVXQ~

Main entrance Deco of T.C.M = Tropicana City Mall. Nice? At least better than KLCC one xP

Yup it's Nichii x] P~i~n~k is ssoooo a NO x) But i tried one exactly the same design in white at S.P d other day. Unfortunately it's taken by another customer the next day T.T

And again Nichii too. Nice? Well this is my 1st green-ny shirt. Yiieahh I brought this also. ^.^ Maybe green doesn't suite me xp I don't know the price la girls. But.. got 10% discount. xD

Haha xD Brian was lao gai-ing because mom and I was taking a long time in the fitting room. xP He was playing with the decos in Nichii when I was out. Since the deco is nice so we took a picture with it =] He his face~!! So L~C

Look up~ =] Deco at main entrance.

In the bus going back home. Look!! Double E!! Means?? It's Ee Min's bus!! xD Gonna tell you something lame. T.C.M provides customers a free shuttle bus from K.J LRT Station to the main entrance of T.C.M. So we are gonna catch the 6pm bus back, we get in the bus just 10minutes before the bus driver start it's engine. After 2 minutes we got seated, my dad called. Saying that he is on the way to fetch us home. We stupidly get down the bus =.= When we are getting off the bus the bus driver asked me ''why am I getting down? Don't want to go K.J?'' That time I was hang-kei-ed because of my dad's just-in-time-phone-call. Hahax well mom helped me to answer so I didn't know what they chat xp farnny eh?

While waiting for dad's arrival. I took picture of this thingy. The red ang pow packet say ''prosperity'' x]

Wwoooww~

Uh huh Brian~! Hit it! Hit it loud!!!

Hahax.. he was bored waiting for dad.

Yipyip we didn't went home straight because this smart princess suggest that go pick up Marcus since we will pass by school. After that we can straight go dinner. So the everyone listened to the princess and went to school x] This is back gate

After school we went Tong Shui Dong. It means Restaurant Desert for my family. But it's real name of that coffee shop is.. I'm not so sure xD Y.J'S parents have a shop in there. Well it's just outside my house la. SeaPark there. 5minutes walk can reach ady. Dad & Marcus had their dinner there. Others of us just ate/drank tong sui x]

Dear people who care :

The actual reason I didn't went to school this morning was because.. My health report is out ady. Remember I went for body check up d other day? Sorry I lied. I woke up at 7am. Reached hospital around 8:30am after having breakfast at Paramount Garden. Settled everything I reached home about 11am++. I'm not gonna tell you guys the result because.. It's unpleasant... Okay fine. I need a place to dump things also. My report wasn't good. I face L.B.P and my darling asthma can active anytime. Like a small jog.. even emotional moments. This doctor knows me very well. She told me personally that if I cry, I m.u.s.t control my breathing. I can't be too angered or not....

I write what I can't keep inside.

I tell what I feel.

I hope if anyone of you read this.. Please do not mention this sickness of mine often or even to others people. Keep it to yourself. If you really care just look after me silently. I dislike special care from anyone who knows about this. Sorry if you felt that I'm exaggerating my sickness. But this is really a big influence in my life.

After dinner and stuff. Aunt Chai came over to my house. Knowing that my report is out so she came over to ''care''. Minutes after Aunt Chai arrived, Aunt Regina came home too. So the table have Mom, Dad, Aunt Chai, Aunt Regina & I.

I listened to what they said.

I accepted whatever lectures they said.

I agree that I'm clumsy on my health.

I disagree that they say I didn't appreciate myself.

I holded my tears all the way until they leave to Genting.

I handle my emotion, my breathing.

It was fine.. Till I locked my self in the toilet.

Water flushing out the shower tub..

You can hear how rush the water is from outside..

And only the sound of the shower you can hear.

Silently.. I cried. So hard to keep it low..

Almost dis inhaled the oxygen.. Almost cause something bad

I msg somebody quite important to me after I have settled down. I still face difficulty of having him as someone more that just a friend. I want it to be. But it might be to rush. I'm not clear. Dan just left me with a great big news. Asthma knocked my door, and I invited it in my heart. Keeping a big secret of me and Dan from my parents. Maybe things came too fast.. Because they didn't line up. But I don't want to leave u-s apart.

Please understand.

Please stay by my side till d end.

Please hold me tight when is needed.

Please forgive me too.

You told me to tell you everything straight in face. But I'm not as strong as you though I am. I admit that after knowing my body is weak, I felt that I brought low my self too. I'm not as brave as last time. I've lost confidence in myself. Everything have gone down.. to the earth. No one knows or felt that I changed. I'm sorry that I've put you in problems again. You may leave if you want... You may. Because if you don't.. at the end I might.. or even must have to.. push you away.

1:16am

> lexis <

this girl have feeling swings

Hey baby~ <3>
I'm crazily enjoying my own silly actions in school now
In senior status but we're like fresh mans there xD

I reached school just in time this morning for assembly. Still can hang around the field chit chat~ chit chat~ a little. Today is my first assembly of the year. x] It's not bad, while I queue up in my class lane. I just need to turn right. And then there he is.. Just that easy to spot him. I thought he was upper six last year. xp my goodness our class is in the same floor! I think I will mis-understand alot of things if I continue thinking/imagining stuff or even guessing stuff. OMG sound so naive. I was very happy while he came in Ko-op and told me he brought up my newspaper for me. I mean.. He actually talked to me first wei! We seldom talk in school though. But he is a girl's lover boy la. Go everywhere surely got girls like to communicate with him one. =.= That is one bad thing about it x[ But just one small little help or move has already make me think of some much things. Isn't that a little silly? Somebody actually didn't know I have a crush on him xp

You'll felt that you're doom

but at the bottom of your heart

you are very happy with what just happened

Anyway I'm sort of free from tomorrow onwards. I mean~ I'll live a single life for about 2 weeks. Dan is going back Switzerland to do his graduation day and some certificate. If his things delay then he'll be back after one month. He generously said that ''we will break up for now, without our parents knowing it. No point keeping me back in his arms but my mind is not on him. When he come back, we will break this relationship off together. After CNY. We will.'' Thank you, Dan. I appreciate your vise decision. Alot. I hope you keep your word.

When he is with you

Giving you promises and handing it in care

You will want to shout out loud and say that

You Love Him.

Early in the morning, something rush into my mind. I'm having.. 4 of them. I feel so.. play girl-ish. But I'm single now. Totally~ so It's up to me. 1st of all.

D~ soon to be best of the best buddies

H~ we are friends. Best friends =]

S.L~ just get started.. I think

Y.L~ we are brothers & sisters. Don't treat me over board.

Korkor holded my hand and cross the road all the way till we reached home. He said ''I holded your hand because you look like a lost child who need someone to lead you into the right path.''

I have the most sincere laughter today.

I happy with it.

Hope tomorrow would be the same.

5:57pm

> lexis <

it's not over yet

Liang Ge Ren

wei she mo dang ni yue lai yue ai yi ge ren de shi hou
que jue de yue lai yue ji mo ne..?

Anything you want to say
Anything you want to think
I don't mind
Just be by my side.
Will do.

Liking you
But sometimes it's hard to understand you
It's hard to comunicate with you
Does this still call a kind of love to you?
I don't know.

No safety feeling
Because they were 3 of us
I can't promise you anything
I also don't have the rights to make thing up

I don't understand
Our situation now
It's complicated, are we friends?
Then I'll keep my distance.

I'm sad, got hurted
It's not because of you I think
Maybe it's because of the ending,
It's not like what I imagine
Thats why I'm sad..?

I can't speak out
I know already
I understand already
I will..

I'm afraid already.
I don't care already.
I had enough of guys.
I have put all I have.
All my effort.
But all the while
What I gain back?
N.o.t.h.i.n.g

8:30pm
> lexis <
IthinkIwantotbesingle
EventhoughIlikedyou

Just so you know

F.Y.I~
Ee Min is taken.
By her ex boy friend a hot and sexy guy.
No longer single and available.

When? It started off on 3rd of Jan 2009. A fall sick day.

Why? Because I'm bored. Believe it. Single life is boring at times. I told him I will not be true.

She don't go hubby-ing around or darling-ing around but he go baby-ing always or honey-ing

She's not sweet you know. Not at all.

How? Just one simple question. Explain explain abit~ then an item is made. Less than 10minutes. Yeah~! and half of her world is talking about Valentine Day already. She don't think she can stay still till Valentine. They will not last long.

Thinking, Wondering, Waiting for true love. Long lasting love. It doesn't appear at early age. She her self seeing people getting together. Though that he/she is the right one. Seeing people put their own life in for their loves one but in the end they still seperate. What is this?! Together then break up again and again the same thing. Ask a girl how many boy friends you have before? She heard 10. She her self already 7 is it..? It doesn't link.

She is waiting fo this one special guy to appear in her world.
Waiting for him to let her fall in love with.
For now she is just fooling around.
Like does anyone even care.

2:58am
talkingtoherself
> lexis <
believeit

Still.. you did not answer

> START 10:30PM <
how can one loves another when one dislike most about that person's character?

While hiding under my blanket last night. My surrounding is dark. Suddently something shine~ It lighten up my room. I heal out my head and took a pick.. That light is from a black colour object It's blinking brightly.. A object that is very important to me. I rub my eyes gently.. Ah~! It was my cell phone xD

So sick of listen to what the elders say

L.G LCD flat screen television with surrounded sound sistem is on.. Playing korean ballad songs. Even though I don't understand what they say.. But by listening to it you can actually feel the meaning of each songs.

''Because her brain is empty thats why she needs me to help her fill it up. Now please excuse us we have important things to do.''

Quited my job today. Last minute notice. There is no more working togerther you know.. Everyone is like spread everywhere. Get moddy very fast. I start to miss Leonid. Aiks~

I have lose all my feelings.

It has been a long time since I'm together with a guy. After Andrew? After Daniel? Even if I'm with them I'm not in my true heart. Andrew is fooling around so am I. Daniel flirts so I do too. I intense to be afraid of holding a guy's hand... Being hugged by someone... Those feelings are frozen.. They need to be warmed up again.

Gain it back!

I think if I'm together with a guy. He must be stronger than me. Cause I'll always manja.. a-l-w-a-y-s and also merajuk / lao gai.. I don't know what it call in english but yeah.. My boy friend have to spoilt me or correct me xD wo bu zhi dao . . . This habit came because of my god father. He spoilted his adopted grandaughter with his wealthy. In the opposite if my he do manja too then okayy but not so often xP I will think that he's weak.. He must also know when and what things to encourage me to do and what not to do. omg~ judge a person like that. Even my cousins also said I'm being a little childish, naive and spoilted ady. It's like another me. After work got driver fetch me back home, The amount of a month's allowence can pop your eyes out. Basically he is the one who disagree me for continue working. After knowing that I got hurt very badly 2 years ago now he is putting a very high hope that I'll have a lover soon. Haihz. Staying at grandfa's house it's the coolest thing in the world!! I can have anything and everything I want. That is not a good thing.

Don't even dare to think.

Imagine if I'm back in school become xiu jie ady. OMG Pn Fari will kill me for being so soft. T.T

1:42AM
> lexis <
wasbusywithothersstuffsoittookmequitesometime
FYI : I'malittledrunkwhilewritingthispost.

PEACE DUDE!!

more pictures

My legs were dying after 5hours of skating.. ++ I wore heels somemore ..
So~ I just took out my heels and walk xD it was after 10pm


=D

It's always food and food and more food~!

Eugene enjoying his meal.. thats my younger bro.

Ask me what he is...

He is a monster..!

Eugene caught in action

xD

24th Dec 08

Lifeless people on christmas eve

Mahjoong-ing with Doreamon

Not that lifeless lo...

Chivas + coke

wet wet water

And then I got childish.........

and lame

haha~ swt............

12:23AM

> lexis <

Family always comes first

23rd Dec 2008
I had cream puffs for breakfast xD before having Wendy's. yummy yummy cream puff~

uh huh.. the girl and I. Mua the older one today.. =.=

Then we went Karaoke~! RedBox.

The path to future~

In the room. Nice graphic.

Caught in action! wuahahaha~

En & I met up with Eugene kor first so he seems to be v-e-r-y hungry xD so we went Gasoline. Before that we were viewing the Sunway Pyramid map thinking where to have our dinner for quite sometime. Hahaha

Gasoline~! Majority youngters like me likes to go there.

The entrance.

It's Frosty the snow man not ghost okayy.

Our table before we leave.

''Why no fillet one?''

xD >inside joke<

When Amy, Wen & Lun arrive they didn't know what to eat in Gasoline so we went to the restorent I work in another brunch. Lolx xP.

Sushi Groove.

--> Lun : eih I eat first!

--> Amy : I know you hungry but me too okayy. Faster!

--> Eugene : yum yummy~

>Created dialog<

Eugene in action!

Eating the dragon's head. NOOooo~!

He loves Unagi roll. xD

Spot us?

Eugene got a meeting to catch so he leave first.

We wrote comments to the manager.. Bad bad comments. wuahahaha

Memang their service is no no good~

Then cam woring at the entrance of the restorent.

Aiks Lun didn't want to take photo with us . . .

But the pro camera lady have took a good view of him xD

The centre court after we walk out of Sushi Groove.

En -> Amy -> Min

Sa~ rang~ hae~ yo~

Lun -> En -> Wen -> Min

Too dangerous to let a stranger take hold of our phone

so every group pic will less of one person

We meet up with Eugene again and went to yam cha

While we are paying the entrance ticket of S.P

Lun got emo-ed and tried to ......

OMG!! He jumped!!

Because Eugene can slide down the stair case but he can't

ha ha ha

See..? Got the picture..? xD

Wondering around S.P in the car didn't know where to go

at last we choose Asia Cafe

& so the end of our adventures day.. It's 1am++ in the morning that time.

21st Dec 2008

This is groovy punch and.. agent orange I think. Haha

Decorated by Sanusi

Groove went out of current because manager terpress the wrong switch xD

cool huh~!

Customer order take away. So Irawan and I drawed somethings on the boxes

xD

I wonder what is the customer's reaction when she see this

Our famous Lion King roll and salmon Sunshine Roll.

Flying Fish & I love Unagi Roll

Tang Yuen Festival!!

Those small ones is I do.

The one big one is Amy's creation, got red bean inside.

Makan besar in Mantin again =D

Yup yup it's me the big eater

Kenny kor didn't know where to start xD

Yip yip~ I still got lots of photo to up load

7:03PM

> lexis <