just adding

oh.. there is something funny Wen reminded me to write on blog..

sunday i went Ou right.. my dinner was at the under brige's mamak.. outside Pet's World..

i didn't really like that place cause i though that it is very stuffy there.. so i reached there before my parents did.. i sat the 1st table when you came in that mamak..

was playing with my phone onlining.. and sms-ing.. didn't notice that there is a bunch of guys walk in looking at me.. [maybe because i was laughing and smiling at phone thats why..] then i felt something hit me from behind.. i turn and look.. it was th guys.. 5 of them.. in Olympes uniform.. the one sitting behind me hit me.. accidentally la.. just a little hit.. he said sorry and sat down.. so i continue playing with my phone.. then i heard them giggling and swispering.. Zzz the table was close to each other so i can hear them a little.. i have good hearings tau XD i just continue with what i am doing.. suddently

a pack of tissue drop next to me.

but it's not mine.

the guy drop it.. and actually expect me to take it up for him. LoL

i didn't ended up his friend call him to take up.. seconds after that-->

guy : erm.. excuse me..

me : err.. yeah? [turn back smiling widely *becuz sms-ing*]

guy : can i know you?

me : .. huh? [b-l-u-r]

guy : can i have your number?

me : .. for??

guy : can we be friend?

me : erm sorry.. i don't give out my number so easily

guy : oh nvm this is my name card [4 came out]

me : err.. you are?

guy : this is mine.

me : oh.. fredrick?

guy : yeah.. nice to meet you. [take out hand]

me : [stare at him] i'm alexis

guy : oh! alexis =] erm.. enjoy your meal

me : =] [turn back my place and continue replying msg]

oh mii gosh.. i didn't shake his hand and make him so mo min XD i was so cold to him . . .

anyway they are not bad looking la.. but they're like in the early age of 20 and i'm???

maybe because i wore maturely that day and light make up.. so i look older i think or mature? haha LoL. you know what.. i lose their name card.. i think i TER-throw it away together with the receipt.. >.< size="1">shit... crapz.. not good.. so bitchy

by the way.. i don't like this kind of friendship.. it won't last long.. it like wasting each other time..

LoL.. if you want to have further relationship with me.. i prefer longer friendship first.. haha blek

ya.. so sad guys.. during ice skating also met up this kind of situation one lo.. but i don't msg them one.. Zzz wasting time and money.. LoL. like Trevox hahaha blek don't wanna talk about talking numbers and meeting guys like them ady.. hmmph.

i forgotten that i took alot of pictures during the L.M Graduation day.. but it's all in the kiddies mom's camera.. how to ask from them?? i have a few cute cute kiddies.. Zzz n-v-m then.. LoL

2:24AM

goodnight

> lexis <

o.0

was so bored this afternoon after off line.. so i went searching for F-O-O-D

yes! and you know what i found? cintan mee~~~ XD

i love it!! if you call me to eat this kind of packed mee i would only eat cintan mee perisa asli xp

*sound SO tai siu jie* reply [ uh! wateva! it's so hawt!] i remeber there is once.. the weather was so hot during chinese new year and i was all dressed up.. and i said the word h-o-t my cousin say i sound like Paris Hilton.. i was like *OH MII GOSH!! no i don't..* Paris Hilton is like so-not my type so don't mix her with mii. . . LoL!!! read it in the sissy way it will sound like a b-i-t-c-h Zzz

well in my dictionary that sounds like a bitch.. [ i should look after my words......sorri xp] okayy come back cintan meeeeeeee... i love cintan mee!! and only cintan mee!!!! you cannot cook for me tau.. got special way to cook only i like one hahaha XD add eggie de-li-cious XDD

cooking cintan mee and the television is on.. watch and eat.. eat and watch.. thats bad right? hmm.. later swallowed something then jeejee loo.. XD *words copy cat i notice tat* yeah anyway.. erm.. where am iii...? hmm.. oh! i was watching Little Fairy that time taiwan show.. but it's old fashion type.. know what i mean? nvm....... acted by Wu Ge & Ariel Lin.. ya so i was watching.. and then eating.. eat finish watch finish.. wash the dish and then i found out the show end ady... Zzz so i on normal tv channel.. it was 8 tv.. it came out chinese jukebox time..

Farenheit Ming Re Xiang.. Zzz don't like that la.. i know their concert is on Nov.15th and i have no ka-chingsxx to buy the ticket.. if buy ady no body teman me go also.. Zzz it's at Bukit Jalil leh.... cheapers RM88 most expensive is RM348 if i'm not mistaken.. of course i'm not desperate to have the most expensive one la.. just give me a nice view can ady.. Zzz not like they are my TVXQ *muacksxx muacksxx* so yeaha.. i don't know wanna buy their ticket anot.. Zzz don't care la...

after hearing to 3 songs.. i turn channel cause the songs are very boring.. it is tv9.. Wonder Pets.. my younger brother always watch this local cartoon i don't know he like i or not but he sing along whenever they sing.. it goes like this.. -->

wonder pets wonder pets kami datang~

membantu haiwan yang ada kesusahan~

kami tak besar~ kami tak kuat~

apabila bekerjasama segala menjadi muda~

LoL!! haha and when there is a call -->

loceng berbunyi~~ ada haiwan dalam bahaya~

ada haiwan dalam bahaya~~~!

ini serious~! kami mesti membantu~!

and so they went and save the animal.. Zzz so lmao.. hahaha

so it was so lame i went to sleep.. 4:30pm till 6pm.. Zzzzzz o.O

i dated Wen and i almost sleep thru the time..

we went pasar malam.. + some veg. restorent for Wen's dinner..

she ate green curry mee.. to tell you honestly..

i hate green curry.. it look so........ and my tummy wasn' that healthy that time so i felt quite..... you know.. it's so tempting i'm just sitting there playing with her phone and mine drinking my royal ice lemon tea.. i don't know why they call it royal.. maybe because they added honey thats why.. before that at pasar malam i drank the yellow jelly drink.. according to Pei Wen she say that drink look like sperm .......... .......... ........... Zzz who cares i like that drink.. but Wen she ask for more sour.. then the aunty ask me what i want.. so i say normal one la.. then she say sour? then i say no.. haihz sweet one la then... you know what she gave me.. honey+jelly......... oh mii gosh... am i not sweet enough??? Zzz mii sour and bitter i know that . . . Zzz ya so in the restorent.. i ordered a bowl of mee but.. i only ate half of it.. it's nice really nice but.. my tummy says stop. >.<> roarrr!!!!a toast to the sick of food yeah.. then Amy came and fetch me back home..

and so i reach home safely.. had a meaningful conversation with Amy in on te way back but.. it P+C hahaha XD not long after i reach home.. LAunt Marry,Aunt Chai, Aunt Regina, Ee Wen and Wen's dad came my house.. *so scary..like big bosses..* then obviously Wen and i chat.. while we're chatting happily.. Aunt Chai broke our ''happiness'' she talk about the part time job in Genting because is having lots of vacancies now.. I do have some interest in it.. but my father strongly disagree- which i don't know why.. i hope i can work part time there this year end.. can gain lots of experiences there of course.. haihz.. my daddy...... talk talk talk.. then Wen wanna go pasar malam.. oh mii gosh i lazy to drag longer ady.. i wanna watch MISS NO GOOD so from now shorten! we went pasar malam.. i brough biscuits.. where i never buy biscuits in pasar malam before.. it's ABC biscuits thats whyyy.. you know what it mean? it means.. i'm a copy cat XD

it is ma namie XD l-e-x-i-s or a-l-e-x-i-s i dono~

my buddy zhupid p-o-h p-u-i

and mi again XD hahaha xp

e-e m-i-n

ya so now i'm here eating the biscuit.. haha

1:02AM

blek xp

> lexis <

suemeifwantto

skip-school-day

yo people! it's a skip school day again!!!

Zzz i slept at 3:30AM yesterday.. actually it should be 3AM but when i found out my phone went crazy crazy and then i went angry angry so at last i slept at 3:30AM...

the sim card got problem saying i haven register.. till end i still can't fix it.. so ijust off my phone and SLEEP!! got so fad up.. cannot send msg.. hmmph

ya so i don't know why no one call me up this morning... hmm.. why? i dono~ duh! of course my alarm rang.. but as usual la i off it and Zzz back XD and so.. now i'm here.. 1st thing i do when i wake up xp

wanted to give you my link.. but ma phone can't send out msg..

so too bad lo.. haha

now

i'm bored...

hmm.. i'll go look for my buddy... F-O-O-D

12:27PM

findityourselfxp

> lexis <

hmm.. bored?

guess which is mii XD

i look like that O.o

if you none stop blinking your eye

it will become more beautiful XD

i was suppose to be studying..

end up

none stop laughing

then my brother came with a bottle...

his new bottleso we went sot~ sot~

just a little bit hahahadown--> i am studying.. when SEJARAH is cracking the vains in my brain
i become like that --> up there XD

blame history don't blame mii

studying history is useless then i jump to maths
maths jump to theory >.< color="#000099">d-o-z-e-d o-f-f XD
[i can't understand maths by learning it by myself leh]
don't blame me can ar.. blame more towards En.Apple laaa T.T
he is the angel of 4M
oh! i went Ou in d evening..

for my kiddies graduation

Little Mozart Level 1 Graduation Day

funny thing is when my mom start her car..

drove out my house went down the road..

GUESS WHAT - - -

the car d-i-e-d

the battery was thirsty

because it is raining so we didn't add water..

push d car to a side parking then we went to Amy's house

since she is the MC of the occasion..

so we all sat her car to Ou..

these are the goodies bag for the kids

i was quite disappointed at first..
i though it will be at the concourse stage
tim zi =.=
it's just outside the music school.. Zzz
the stage is small..
it gotta fit 1 digital piano and 2 keyboards
when the kids are performing on keyboards i so scared if they fall >.<
but luckily nothing nothing.. everything went smoothly..

-->so this is our Toastmaster - Amy Choo

--> certificates.. there is more in the office xp

you wanna know what time i slept yesterday night?

the last time i saw the clock it was 6:10AM . . .

c-r-a-z-y no wonder my tummy fan min

anyway was online blogging..

watching the new taiwan drama

Bu Liang Xiao Hua - Miss No Good

oh mii gosh..

Rainie Yang is the main actress..

and..

in the 1st episode.. i got freak out but her..

>.<>

damn farnny and damn moliu

i wonder how Wilber Pan act with her..

craps specially her voice gosh.. like barbie doll only wei

hahaha even my brother can't stand her voice XD and........

her hair

i was actually having fun kek sei-ing you yesterday morning XD

so sad right i got your blog you don't have mine.. hahaha xp

seriously i think you better not know whats my blog..

because -->

it's emo

lots of crapsx

somethings bout you..

or

most of things are about you

lifeless..

yeah thesesome sort of thing i call it reason.. or.. excuses?

XD

i wonder.. if you read all my latest blog..

i surely gg ady

i'm so going to dig a deep hole and hide inside ><

i don't know what to say nor do..

so i'll let you find it your self.. xp ha-ha-ha

cruel to be cruel XD

oh ya talking about Toastmaster..

Amy called me to join her too..

i think its a good chance to learn something very new to me..

she describe about how they have their activities before

and i found it quite interesting..

so i plan to go with her after my finals.. which is like..

mid Nov.. so sad.. i hope i don't need to wait till next year..

and to those friends of mine who is reading this post now..

if you're interested in this.. come find mii..

because.. i'm scared to go alone haha

heard that it's not easy tau ><

and talk about Little Mozart

i wanna take up the course.. soon they will have one

learn what is it about haha because i like the songs XD

then when i'm pro enought to teach then i will teach

then got income.. then got money then got ka-chingssxxzzz XDD

HAHAHA crazy money ><

so also after final exam i'm going to take up alot of stuff..like

--> part time job

--> little mozart course

--> toastmaster

--> small expedisi to Pahang

--> 3 days 2 night in Singapore...

wwuuuaaahhhh so muchy haha

oh ya! Pahang!!!!!

totally forgotten craps...

Kembara Club going to organise a small expedition to --

Pahang then down to Johor then back to K.L

[anyone interested?]

anyway ya 8 days 7 night

around RM300-RM400

Dec 10 till DEC18th.

becuzz not much people wanna go big expedition Sabah&Sarawak this year

so Woon came out with this plan.. so we form4 are incharge

p-r-e-s-s-u-r-e- only ar... Zzz

ya so i hope i'm going becuzz i love going outdoor

but not really into camping anymore.

Next year going Pulau Kapas again Cotton Island

i hope i can go cuz this year i didn't get to play water activities ><

yeah so like that la..

2:04AM

youknowimissyouandihopeyoudotoo

goodnight people and ......

muackszz

> lexis <

PS : i'm a copy cat XD catch me if you can

people people.. min's blog is emo

ass eue wish...
am bored..
am still online
am addicted to blog..
am is lame..
am emo
am silly
am mood swings
am quite stupid
or maybe
totally
zhupid
am.. hungry..
am should give him address?

am missing someone b-a-d-l-y

4:06AM time to sleep

night night

muackszz

> lexis <

lostmiiself

i..

love..

him..?

or..

use to it ady?

or..

just..

missing..

him..?

i..

can..

barely

hang on

to myself..

miss him so badly..

do

you

have

the

same

feeling

towards

me?

sick of

hearing

people's

comments

sick of

listen

to what

they say

-->

why so

EMO?

i can't let you go myself...

i'm PROUD

of

loving you

let me in

or

kick me out

pls

decide

.

.

.

.

asap

do i need a title..?

okay i'm bored..
parents went out to some client's house for dinner..
><>
sob..sob.. plain porridge again..
aihz..
yup..
thursday night they went pasar malam.. without me
friday night they went maybank mamak.. without me
tonight they went some rich client's house for dinner.. without me..
deng!!*
malay food!
plus is someone rich! i'm sure their food will be extremely DELICIOUS
>.<>

yeah and i though i can't live without him..
but actually i can xp
haha trying
some sort of thinking makes me clear..
LoL
Zzz

big elephant falls sick [edited]

yup that is thursday.. went seeking for stuff on friday.. xp so sien waiting for cab..
and then in the LRT.. hehe was using -->her phone to msg him<--

kena scolding from her then she replied -->him Zzz so lmao

Jogoya Star Hill K.L

and this is the wei sek mao....... eat eat eat.. eat until kena food poisoning....... so smart . . .

ben tan!!! 3 days going in and out toilet.. deng*

she 2 day then recover liao i 3rd day still half dead ar...

Zzz not fair she eat more than me leh...

the desert..

main dishes? LoL.. i think is the oyster's fault..

poison mii.. ><

wed go makan..

thursday food poisoning..

friday vomiting..

saturday restless..

sunday??

aihz..

this few days also didn't blog.. don't really have the mood to type ady..

plus no energy..

sms him also cannont hold the phone nicely..

i ter-drop my 016 phone leh.. when sms-ing P..

><>

one day eat once.. and is eat plain porridge leh..

so sien...

this morning crazy crazy go make hot chocolate and eat the miihoon..

tim zhi . . . . vomit out also.. *deng* until now still didn't eat.. scared later go toilet again..

(".) wanna msg him.. but no mood.. feel very weak..

msg-ed him then he say he wanna sleep..

Lol.. then let him sleep lo..

now i felt..

i'm like nothing to him...

no important.

as though is like...

sms-ing me to kill time.. to fill the boredness...

i feel so empty when i was sick..

*obviously.. nothing in my stomach of course feel empty la*

no la idiot!! not THAT empty-empty-kind..

Zzz zong zi.. now..

he like not that important ady..

sms also half dead one..

P call advise me to call him.. since we didn't talk on phone before..

i wanted to but i'm so weak that time...

and if others time i call him..

Whowho is there.. he surely crap alot one..

and he got things to do.. how can talk to me for hours?

not like Trevox also.. so free.. LoL

my blog always talk bout him..

i'm sure you guys read until bored ady right . . .

haihz i also don't wanna think bout him..

yesterday evening till now i didn't msg him or anything..

he is back in PJ but sadly i'm sick.. and

i'm sure he don't even think of seeing me..

told him i'm not feeling well..

how i wish he say something caring.. at least a 'take care'?

or drink more water..?? LoL

haihz..

i don't expect anything from him ady..

and..

i don't expect my self to have anymore move towards him ady . . .

i'll just take things and people as they come...

i don't wanna care anymore..

not as if he cares also.. LoL

whatever you guys wanna say about my blog or anything you can leave a comment

or something in my cbox..

either good or bad comments i don't mind..

but don't go over board..

it is still what i want to say and write on my blog.

can't help it [ no offence with this post ]

[this post is in draf side i don't know why it should be that last monday's post]

connection was bad ><>
when i reach class the girls wasn't in their place..

confirm they're at canteen..

early in the morning got one zhupid guy in my class talk crap over

i was listening to what he say all the time.. totally talk C&$% over there D%$& fan..

just need to tell teacher -->

ACCIDENTLY mixed the paint with tinner will buy back a new one.

sorry teacher. this saturday we will get everything done.

... simple as that. LOL

when the girls came back P was moody i don't know why

cause i was busying pretending that i was sleeping XD

because no assembly so we chat in class.. talk all also sea language.. =D

then it was.. m-o-r-a-l Zzz Pn.Lee

i was munching cookies then she ter'nampak but that time i swallow everything ady one..

then she scold scold scold over there ><>

so she talk about not schooling go do something we like bla~ bla~ bla~

old folk tale again.. copy some notes then . . .

it's is SCIENCE!!!!!

Zzz monday science gotta go science lab.. lazying walking to science then--

out of no where.. we heard.. a girl screaming!! so sharp..! we turn back... it is.. it was!!!

Kah Ying . . . . thanks to that group of girls En Alan was staring at our class from teacher's room

lol.. yup then we all rush to science lab xp

it was boring.. don't know what teacher teaching..

teach half way she go talk to Su Fung they all LOL so lifeless..

then Sien started singing song.. sing song nvm.. sing until very nice..

but it came to

Jolin - Dao Tai

that the song i sang to him when we went singing k with Ivan and Ham that day..

then Menn said don't sing later Min bu shuang..

i was in sileant mode that time..

then Sien still continue singing i was like..

w-a-l-i-a-o want like that meh . . .

at last she change song.. to something worse..

Jam Hsiao's song..

So Chang, Yuen Liang Wo, Zzz oh god...

1stly let me say something...


Jam Hsiao

-so chang

-yuen liang wo

-teng ai

-fen bu gu shen

-duo xi wang ni zhai

Jolin

-dao tai

-yi ge ren

-kai chang ba



Yoga

-shen mi jia bin

-bo le

-wo ai de ren



these are the songs which is meaningful to me

if whoever don't understand what is 'to him'

then pls go and ask Poh Pui... LoL.

yea.. continue singing

I beh tahan wanna go toilet.. the 'cleverest' teacher didn't wanna let me go.. hmmph

nvm i go back and guai guai sit down..

it's 9:25am.. asking my self should i go now?

nvm la just go.. so i went toilet.. will meet P at canteen.

zhupid i walk all the way up to the toilet the 'clever' maid saw me walking up..

when i reach there only she say it's close.. washing.. ><
oh! i feel like killing my self that time.

okies! it's breakfast!!

i didn't want to eat.. thx to Menn and Sien i became moody again.

it's like one after another arrow... lol. [ no offence ]

i brought nasi lemak + kentang + egg it cost me RM2:60.. lol

walk like half dead.. buy milo like half dead.

if i have another twins which is another me

if i saw my self like that i would wack her up until she is happy!

Lol.. ><

feel like vomiting ><

everything was fine until the bell rang and James walked in..

at first he thanked Wen for being there when he needed someone..

then.. talk about my blog..

' was very emo, what i gave this necklace to him bla~ bla~ bla~'

i was trying to take it cool because he didn't know what happen so i didn't say anything

until Wen said just take it as he is singing song.

sorry James for what you said in canteen it offence me.

i didn't like it..

so what my blog is emo??! every single letter i type comes out from my heart

so what you think that i'm a emo person??! i don't care.

that is what i am thinking.. that is my mood for that time

now i look back i do feel that it's too over reacting.

i have no idea i was that sad that time.

James you wanna tell me that it's damn fucking emo

then i think you should have say it in a nice way

instead of 'talking loudly' in the canteen like that

Lol. after James walk away i push my plate infront.

i left one bite more to finish that plate of rice.. damn it!

i grab my milo drink a little.

then Wen say ignore it

i got worse i slamp the cup on the table and i walked off..
the S.H. andrew still funny funny there though him self very cute..

ooooh i hate these kind of guy.

can't believe he is actually my ex-ex boy friend. LOL!!!

went to the toilet then teres.. when the bell almost rang i wetn toilet again

i came out then J-Yee went in.. she look misarable so i teman her..

then she cried.. i cried..





Wen and I was too bored so we drawed our hand ><>



looking for what's down there o.0




i was wrong

2:21AM 22.09.08
goodmorning!
> lexis <

such an silly idiot [edited]

sincerely telling..i hate emos.. Lol.
it didn't came up like this at the first place..
yes i am emo-ing but not too much..
not so into emos..

><>
we didn't talk anymore on msn.. nor sms-ing...
i promise my self not to msg him.. anymore
wanna chang my hotlink 012 number..
soon my phone will be changed too..
...

[was trying to write like a poem.. but i'm not smart]
as i write my this post.. alone in my room..
it's save to drop a tear..
now i know i do love him this much...
it's okay if we don't meet...
just let me talk to you..
at least we chat till someone laugh..
at least in our conversation there is a 'haha'...
it use to be like that everytime i talk to you..
and when everytime i talk to you..
every problem.. everything goes behind my mind..
there is only yoou and me...
those msg you sent i will always re-read it..
over and over again...
appreciate every single word you said..
i don't want to delete every msg you sent..
it's so meaningful to me..
when people around me view my inbox in my phone..
they always ask is he your boy friend?
and i always smile back and say...
''sadly no... he is a extremely close friend . . .''
and after i say those words...
i feel sad.. just a while
think before should i be your sister..
but i don't want to..
i remember.. i broke the this relation before
if im not mistaken..
but.. no i can't take you as my brother...
i didn't imagine what will we look like if we're couples
i don't dare to dream
don't dare to even think so far...
it's like predictable that it won't happen..
when you msg me in phone.. i didn't want to reply..
but at last.. i did
my mood was still moody.. till you msg me on msn
it's like you lighten up my mood..
i was laughing.. my brother though im insane
but still.. i decide to take it cool...
such an silly idiot
now i feel that i'm wrong.. so wrong..
even though i deleted your number..
but it's still in my heart..
last year when i heard that you like S.T..
i drop down.. way down into the well...
and that is the time i stop sms-ing you..
don't know when on earth this year when you're teaching in Puay Chai
i begin to msg you again..
when we once started i told my self.. not too much
just when i'm bored or i'm missing him thats all
not too much...
but look what happen at the end...
recently when you start college..
i told my self again..
it's useless...
and when it start to ''muackszz'' , ''dear'' , ''baby''
i gone blur...
very.. blur..
and now thing ended up this way...
[screw this up don't read it]
yes i admit.. 016-3435 is my friend's number
sorry i lie...
but i don't know what else can i do...
calling you to get rid of me..
you almost did it..
why did you came back after the party?
my plan was destroy..
if that night you didn't msg me or anything
i can forget you..
and if that night my finger was listening to what i say
then i won't reply your msg..
if i didn't reply your msg then you won't notice me online..
at the very begining
if i didn't met you
the necklace is your's..
i think you will have no time to find and don't know where
so i help a little..
it's the 2nd piece..
wasn't that meaningful ady..
the 1st piece pull us tighter a little..
but this piece..
i choose to let go..
but i didn't regret that i met you
now i regret that i took this road...
how can i get you back?
i hope i can..
but i don't dare to make a move..
i scared i will regret.. again..
i scared it's not the answer i wanted....
you've hang my world up side down

i still can't let you go.. [edited]

yeah..
the more i think of him..
the more i see his name..
the more people mention about him..
the harder i get to forget him..
i can't.. let him go...

is there any sad movie nowadays? lets go and watch..

the day before yesterday i've decide not to think of him anymore..
yesterday night.. he gave me a spark in my dark heart..
i can't forget what he wrote on msn..
so i went online again today...
waiting for him to come in..
and he did..
he nudge me..
we talked..
but i was cold.. very cold to him..
i'm sorry.

Orange's - Fei Wen Nui You
i found a song that suite my mood to you..
when i get into the car heading to Ou for violin class..
a phone ring
It's was Sureen..
She called to make things clear..
Sorry Veron.. i've misunderstand you.

I was very happy these few days
yes i am..
trying hard to keep it up..

tear drop under the rain

-->my fav. colour =]

this morning's piano class were like half dead fish...



got dinner again ne.. tonight at Curve Damansara



aiyo! ffk my classmates this morning... sorry la couldn't wake up



why la you go online.. Zzz wanna change my account also! hmm.. no no it's not wise to do such silly thing . . . lol! reply laaaa waiting for you to reply...



-->my sister's fav. colour

i force my self to s-m-i-l-e last thursday.. cried on wed night.. thursday morning i didn't want to attend school.. but.. i needed someone to talk to.. aihz so i went to school.. morning was still blurring my self in my mind.. trying hard not to think of you.. after recess i beh tahan tears was dropping like as though it's raining.. no body knows.. =] none of them need to know... lol.. after school yea got chinese class.. no mood then went time square right.. my mood was still messy that time.. the whole day i wore a mask =] a beautiful mask and it did work out as what i wanted.. but the mask didn't last till night.. while kai kai-ing in pasar malam with Wen i dump everything out to her... that was when i think clear....



--> i hate this colour

-i just need to cry once and everything is clear..

-just one word from you then i'll be fine..

-tell me the truth..

-am i anonying? or was i?
while i always msg you?

sometime i'll think that it is anonying xp


2:24AM 22.09.08
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> lexis <

things are getting worse

anyway.. wanna add something..
if im not mistaken.. this colour is his fav. colour..
not to be perasan.. but i think he is talking to me..indirectly... lol!!!

it did brighten up my mood but.. it's still a little thing to clear =]
hoping there is something coming up la..


PS : i will stilll like you =]

just another hard day..

yup.. so this is the necklace i gave to ahem.. =]

went jalaning at Time Square.. saw this dress.. Wen n I tried d same dress tau XD

lier lier pants on fire..

yup yup.. ya right! the whole doesn't only live him =]

Zzz.. okay okay things went this way -->

thursday afternoon after school should go chinese class... but becuz of no mood & temtation i didnt went XD so mayb wil kena D3 =] cool eh haha.. lol.. ya then we went time square.. find Pp shoe's then Wen's dress.. suddently i found my necklace!!! didnt even think anything then i straight buy... overall it cost me 48bugs.. its not the price or anything... uh.. nvm.. then.. went jalan there jalan here.. last stop was my fav. nai cha XD then went back to SS2 go for pasar malam. bu zhi tau why.. walk until 9pm plus plus then sent Wen back..

To Veron :

I don't know what happen.. why Ling will know i got something to pass to him but.. I though i can trust you. i told my self.. just this last chance i will trust you. if you said something out while i ady tell you dzillion times not to tell out then i will fan min with you. this time i did really tell you everything.. and.. i was wrong to... pls tell me im not. tmr morning i will make things clear.. but seriously.. don't let me know you told someone else that you're not suppose to.

great i forgotten what to write ady..

confirm forgetting him liao loo XD lol! deleted his number.. his picture.. his everything.. except his birth date la.. lol.. i've think after i gave him the necklace if nothing comes in then.. i'll give up everything.. YES EVERYTHING! wuahahaha . . . lol.. so.. now.. as time passes by things will come as it will.. then we will see who will be the one taking over ''him'' la =]

frm friendster.

deng.. deng.. deng.. deng!! kaaa-booomm ~ ~ ~

Daniel, Ryan, Luke and lovingly Xanne.. you people &*%^ to the max! get out of my life! as though we didn't met each other since we were young! I don't want dramas in my life anymore..the only one i trust is Ced..None of your'll can replace him eventhough we are just shortly 1 month couples..eventhough he is gone but one day i'll be with him..no all of us will be there. i don't like to hate somebody..it's tiring

together, break up, together, break up.. i'm tired of all these games ady.. omg he and his friends sucks.. how can i even call them friends?!!! i wonder why you called for a break up i ask why you say it's for our own good..then after a few days you said sorry..swear to god saying you will treat me as i'm am the only one, you say you will appreciate me better than others, will trust me no matter what happen..you desperately want me back.. if you want to appreciate me, at the very begining shouldn't you do that already?! well.. foolish me have trusted you once again.. and look now. what have you done to me..i officially broke up with him yesterday! Unfortunately yesterday I also fight with my best friend.

Evelyn : I know you're moody at time but seriously i'm about to give up this friendship.. but it's 11 years of friendship not the number of years that matter.. is the things we've been thru together for all this years..told you my boy frined must be so understanding like you do..have to be alert at time..will know what i think what i want to say in the next second like how you did. I really believe that nothing can do us apart. we like the besties amount the best. don't need a word just a look after a few seconds you will found us either launghing loudly or smiling sweetly.. i don't think any other girl can be my best friend like you. I appreciate this friendship like we always do.. recently alot of things happen to us.. I can't be so understanding to forgive you.. not like you did something wrong just that.. we are not spending much time together. hardly even see each other.. anyway 3 days in a row we didn't talk didn't see each other.. when i saw you in school i really feel like smacking your stupid head into the bloody wall.. i'm sorry that i said that you're quite self-centred at times but.. I don't know whatelse to say to you..but i really felt that you wants attentions from eveyone.. i'm not jealous or angry.. i just want you to be your self. when you're sad you can tell me. you can share with me when everything went so wrong remember that you still have me. no matter which stick tick to which number in the clock my phone will always be full bar.. because of you these few days i reloaded more that usuall but sadly.. when i call you, you didn't want to answer my phone..don't save money for me..part of my money is for you to spent.. i know same goes to you. we talk very well during sms but why....when we meet up it's like.. we just meet each other? i hate this kind of situation..after sms-ing when we meet up i hope we talk more..i don't like to stay happy only during sms and when we meet up we're like so quiet..overall i just want to be your self..i dislike it when you act cute or laugh out loud as though you're really happy.. don't you find it tired to act like you're happy? anyway.. i will be patience until every problem is settle. you can don't talk to me. just text me every night and tell me what happen the whole day. i will do it too. =]

-there is still something for you

frm frienster

err.. it's a inside joke =] anyway.. i'm not emo-ing these few days so don't worry bout mii.. =] ppssttt i hate emos =D
S.C hmm.. ''dirtyIng'' the ko-op board is fun.. but i'm quite interested in Pengurus Kedai.. XP looky it's a big job to mii so i don't think i can do it well.. xp nevermind i will learn to.. soon . . . hahaha I can't wait to go Genting!!! xp too stress out here ady need fresh air......hahaha
K.H hmm.. well yea..i've a bf but he don't really treat me as his gf.. now he turn a blame on mii so we're gone.. looser xp haha sorry la i lied.. but seriously i wanna know what is the feeling being your gf.. since you didn't put any hope on me so.. yea you'll go your way i'll go mine =] p~e~a~c~e

Ice skating!! Jer.. ooohh he is SO fast!! craps . . . deep shit.. yeh i'm in deep shit!! Zzz Trevox ffk-ed not fair.. O.o i just remembered!! I took a video while their're racing more like speeding in a nicer way muahahaahaa.. gone crazy aww.. but i know la to Jer is no hope liao.. he don't even know mii leh.. more like he is interested in W.. but obviously i know that Jer will wanna know her more than I.. bbuuttt... argh! we are besties i can't and won't fight with her for a guy wert.. right . . . not again.. damn.. till d end i will still dislike it la.. duh i'm a girl you know Zzz hmmph
saying about W.. she know i broke up with Dan and got interested into 2 guys recently L.S and Jer..
WAIT!! i'm not a play girl okay my ex-bf who get mii back a month ago is not treating me as what we are before I can understand he just did a operation needs rest and stuff but still.. not even answering my phone?! not even a short msg maybe saying i miss you or something?! ridiculous! well he believed my biggest enemy but not mii.. i did tried to explain but nothing seem to going in his ears.. so we break up yesterday 3-08-08 =] exactly 1 month... okay now back to topic.. yea so i'm interested in 2 guys while i'm in a relationship.. so what?! interested but i didn't make any moves! i didn't flirt.. Zzz okay come back min come back!! okay!! W.... she.. sort of keep on telling me about she and L.S.. so of course i don't really like it la.. but she is now having her own problems too so i don't want to start a fight with her.. i'll just tell her nice way la =] asap hope so before genting trip or not.... i surely will fight with her about L.S course....

hehehe is going.. to Jer also leh.. i know la he smiled at you.. keep lookin at you.. okay fine i don't wanna talk about it anymore i'm just admiring his skills yeah! just his skills nothing more yeah!!
okay kena scolding ady..

will up date again.. soon =]

a morning breeze

omg so stupid.. woke up at 5:30 this morning Zzzz like that nvm.. i slept at 2:40am gosh.. it's torturing >.<>.<>.<] yup... yup.. look like little small boy todiey XD

nah~ he is my cousin my.. beloved cousin who gave me a cut on my head >.< style="color:#33ccff;">still remember small that time a chinese new year Kenny kor, Kelvin kor, Ee Wen and I played something called.. carrying princess xp so when i was going to be the winner.... over happy i left my head towards behind.. didn't realise we're ady at the door so you know the door got something pop out to close the door one? my head hit that thing la.. when i come down Kelvin kor saw the blood! but i was still laughing and laughing and continue laughing XD then we went into the toilet.. well kor was a little scared and nervous but.. i was still laughing hahaha xd then parents found out faster faster went to a clinic >.<>.< head ="[">hahaha* and i've alot of sweets er your'll all don't have! hmmph! *walk away erogantly* suddently don't know who say : ya la you have everyhing la but we all don't have a cut on our head worr.. *tears dropping* then wua~~ kor kor say me . . . . . . then Chai Ku then and scold that whoever haha.. remember that year punnya chinese new year very tension one.. my mom will scold Chai Ku why let us play together then they will start bla bla bla-ing XD but us cousin no matter what happen we still having fun in our way XD

okay enough of olden day stories ady haha..

monday after school went uh hmmh haha things went like this

Menn came my house then we took cab to Ou..

went ice creaming then straight to Neway.. xp

Kah Ying they came late so we started singing and singing and singing.. i didn't really like Z.J they smoke in the room la but.. what can i say.. so nvm la =]

my god why up load photo goes up there one?!

Zzz bbaggger

I-a-N :

don't write so much liao can't up load nicely one.. stupid...!

anyway yup we fight.. no more like i'm angry at him.. but think think think

i meant nothing to him.. and he meant everything to me..

it have been 1 an a half year.. nothing came better.. or maybe it did..

but i didn't wanna ask.. scared getting back the answer that i didn't want to hear..

haihz these are the conservation we talked pass few days...

Min : ding dong.. ding dong~ ding dong ding dong~!

Ian : err.. who's this? who are you looking for?

Min : good evening! i am a girlo guide from South East Asia Secondary School. Going every home to sell cookies for charity. do you want some cookies? it's delicious =]

Ian : if you baked them then i don't want.. lol! XD

Min : oh no! no no no. but sir it's harmless! wanna try some? it's really delicious.

Ian : give me the nurition facts.. is it homemade? how many spoons of sugar are in th cookies? when were they baked? when is the expiry date for these cookies?

Min : 9 full table spoon of sugar. 6 full spoon of salt. 5 full tea spoon of ajinomoto. 11 eggs. =D it's freshly made this afternoon. it will last til tmr night. delicious!

Ian : and are you going to pay me to eat them? hahaha.. why is a girl guide going around selling cookies?

Min : for charity sir! erm.. sorry sir we're selling them for 5 dolar per pack. you can try some here sir.

Ian : sweats.. only if you feed me.. ahh *opens mouth* lol

Min : *a house fly flyed into your mouth* sir?! are you okay?

Ian : *spits fly into girls's mouth* err.. girl? are you choking?? *pats girl's back*

Min : lol!! *spits fly into sir's face* erm.. *cough cough* sorry sir! *cough*

Ian : it's okay its okay.. *wipes face and throw fly into cookies* err.. are you sure you still want to let me try those?

Min : oh no ir don't need. now you gotta but it all sir! you've dirtyed my cookies sir! *tears dropping* sir.. you spoilt my cookies... wuahhhhh *crying loudly*

Ian : oh.. well.. you should be happy.. atleast the fly enjoys eating your cookies look! *fly licking cookie* atleast there's a fly that wants your cookies! not bad!

Min : yes sir! you are. atleast you paid the money and not wasting it. the fly is helping you sir. =] now RM35 dolar please. there is 7 pack of cookies here. you can have those cookies that is not dirty. after all.. it's delicious =]

Ian : are you sure you want to continue with this? what's the point texting me? kill time? haha..

Min : hahaha i don't know.. haha funny me.. XD i can't fall asleep.. haha very lame wei..

Ian : . . . sweats.. ya lah.. don't know who started it.. == girl guide some more..

Min : hahaha others country is girl guide one ma.. not meh? hahaha what you doing? first i though was others ppl playing with your phone tim.. haha

Ian : heh.. lamenya.. go tidor la.. me mau study.. tmr quiz.. hmmph..

~conversation ends~

soon to continue =]

DAMN this s***!!! Look limao I dont care on what you say anymore or who you hang out with okay!

you betrared me didnt you know?!
genting roomate?!
hanging out time?!
basketball?!
even bicycle?!
WHY THE F*** AM I BLASSING INTO TEARS NOW??!!!
LOOK!!! B****
GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!!

I <3 this song

She calls me baby, then she won't call me.
Says she adores me and then ignores me.
Jenny, what's the problem?She keeps her distance and sits on fences.
Puts up resistance and builds defenses.Jenny, what's the problem?
You leave me hanging on the line.Every time you change your mind.
First You say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.
I"m standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.
Jenny, it's killing me.She needs her own space.
She's playing mind games.Ends up at my place saying that she's changed.
Jenny, what's the problem?I'm trying to read between the lines.
You got me going out of my mind.
First, you say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.
I'm standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.
Jenny, it's killing me. It's killing me. It's killing me.
Jenny.First, you say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and I'm not moving on.
I'm standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.
Jenny.First, you say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.
I'm standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.
Jenny. It's killing me. It's killing me. Jenny.

yesterday was great!!!! went Puay Chai met Zheng Rong then we sat tat the sing zhen lou then and chit chat everyone that know me though his my bf though XD can la not bad but his just short only ma.. XD
While we talk have fun walk up and down everything.. hahaha chat about sensitive questions too! like do i have bfs how many exs etc etc.. XD haha while lunch time audrey, him and I went to our old class.. then after that he went to look for FOOD!! im hungry toobut wanted to go Ou and eat..
Then I didnt look for food straigh went to take a cab i stoped i cab once but he doesn't wanna fetch so i continue to stop the others.. well.. when waiting Melinda and another girl from her class came and asked weather wanna take the same cab anot so i say okay la.. then audrey called Zheng Rong to come with us so we waited for teksi around 20minutes? and we still can't stop one!!!! =.=
ok fine then Zheng Rong called for a cab but half way while waiting for that recepsionist to continue her work i found a teksi behind us and THANKS TO ME we got that teksi but BLOODY HELL him cost us RM10 buckc to go Ou while its quite o-k-a-y cause there is 4 of us including me so RM2.50 each XD
in the cab i didnt talk to Melinda cause uh-duh who wanna talk to her la she so bossy =.= f*** ass