sincerely telling..i hate emos.. Lol.
it didn't came up like this at the first place..
yes i am emo-ing but not too much..
not so into emos..
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we didn't talk anymore on msn.. nor sms-ing...
i promise my self not to msg him.. anymore
wanna chang my hotlink 012 number..
soon my phone will be changed too..
...
[was trying to write like a poem.. but i'm not smart]
as i write my this post.. alone in my room..
it's save to drop a tear..
now i know i do love him this much...
it's okay if we don't meet...
just let me talk to you..
at least we chat till someone laugh..
at least in our conversation there is a 'haha'...
it use to be like that everytime i talk to you..
and when everytime i talk to you..
every problem.. everything goes behind my mind..
there is only yoou and me...
those msg you sent i will always re-read it..
over and over again...
appreciate every single word you said..
i don't want to delete every msg you sent..
it's so meaningful to me..
when people around me view my inbox in my phone..
they always ask is he your boy friend?
and i always smile back and say...
''sadly no... he is a extremely close friend . . .''
and after i say those words...
i feel sad.. just a while
think before should i be your sister..
but i don't want to..
i remember.. i broke the this relation before
if im not mistaken..
but.. no i can't take you as my brother...
i didn't imagine what will we look like if we're couples
i don't dare to dream
don't dare to even think so far...
it's like predictable that it won't happen..
when you msg me in phone.. i didn't want to reply..
but at last.. i did
my mood was still moody.. till you msg me on msn
it's like you lighten up my mood..
i was laughing.. my brother though im insane
but still.. i decide to take it cool...
such an silly idiot
now i feel that i'm wrong.. so wrong..
even though i deleted your number..
but it's still in my heart..
last year when i heard that you like S.T..
i drop down.. way down into the well...
and that is the time i stop sms-ing you..
don't know when on earth this year when you're teaching in Puay Chai
i begin to msg you again..
when we once started i told my self.. not too much
just when i'm bored or i'm missing him thats all
not too much...
but look what happen at the end...
recently when you start college..
i told my self again..
it's useless...
and when it start to ''muackszz'' , ''dear'' , ''baby''
i gone blur...
very.. blur..
and now thing ended up this way...
[screw this up don't read it]
yes i admit.. 016-3435 is my friend's number
sorry i lie...
but i don't know what else can i do...
calling you to get rid of me..
you almost did it..
why did you came back after the party?
my plan was destroy..
if that night you didn't msg me or anything
i can forget you..
and if that night my finger was listening to what i say
then i won't reply your msg..
if i didn't reply your msg then you won't notice me online..
at the very begining
if i didn't met you
the necklace is your's..
i think you will have no time to find and don't know where
so i help a little..
it's the 2nd piece..
wasn't that meaningful ady..
the 1st piece pull us tighter a little..
but this piece..
i choose to let go..
but i didn't regret that i met you
now i regret that i took this road...
how can i get you back?
i hope i can..
but i don't dare to make a move..
i scared i will regret.. again..
i scared it's not the answer i wanted....
you've hang my world up side down
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