0o0oo0o0o0o who live in the pineapple under the sea..... sponge bob square pants.. lalalala lalalalalala ......... don't know how to sing don't sing la..! what..??!! there is alot of lala living under the sea also wert... =.= actually i forgot the lyrics.. XD thick face!!!!!!! hahaha
inci bitci spider clamming up the wall.... down came Audrey and wash the spider off... poor thing the spider isn't strong at all... haih... bad Audrey bad Audrey... ahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahaahahaha
damn sarcastic la this idiot... =.= look who's talking
okay okay okay i'm bored alone at home.. okay lets talk bout today..
well i just came back from PASAR MALAM it's the latest nigth where i came WALK back ALONE.. from chao yang to SS2/28 uh huh.. then i also spend quite a lot of $$$$$ =.= thx to my sister.. buy this, buy that, and this.. and this and that.. that that.. buy wrong ady.. if she scold me then i'm going to kill her!!!!! bluek haha she's in tuition now!! har har har
do you what.. some time you can just ignore what i say on my blog.. don't give a damn i don't mind.. >.<
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
oh no..no.. no.. no..
oh no.. he is coming back to me again.. diaoz >.< I not going to care of him anymore hah i'm not the old me anymore hahaha you can't trap meeeee.. hahaha xp
Well it's too bored.. i wanna go out ne.. hrm..
oh ya i brought something for someone it's A PAIR of necklace.. a couple thing.. and i don't think he will like it.. will he?keke i don't know..=.=
Well it's too bored.. i wanna go out ne.. hrm..
oh ya i brought something for someone it's A PAIR of necklace.. a couple thing.. and i don't think he will like it.. will he?keke i don't know..=.=
things come by and it go.. haha
There goes our friendship just because of a guy..again
This morning.. me and someone had just un-misunderstand each other.. then everything was fine as usuall.. just until tuition time..
Haih as I was saying everything went down the drain after I read her hp msg..
1st of all.. during Kapas camp I SORT OF have a MINOR crush on this ‘new guy’ we newly know in camp.. well during the camp we ---- 3 of us kinda like buddy buddy.. so like i say.. I SORT OF have a MINOR crush on him.. on my point of view Xue didn’t really tell me how she feel bout the ‘new guy’ but I my self told her almost everything.. now I know that is kinda foolish when I’m telling her everything and she is not.. it’s like she doesn’t want anybody to know bout her.. to tell you honestly, I don’t like that..
Today 25th Jun 07
I read her msg.. *perposely* cause she is not telling me anything.. then I didn’t know that the whole msg area is full of his msg and I didn’t realise how close are they until I read the 1st few msg.. -.- that time I was like --- o-k-a-y.. that’s.. a.. little.. shockenning.. after that Rynn helped her, Rynn took my hp and started msg-ing Jian.. -.- at first I didn’t give a damn after that when I read further into Xue’s msg-es I got a little pist off.. then Rynn tell me that she is actually just msg-ing some nonsense to Jian.. why am I so worried.. *things and things..* so after that I beh tahan I took Xue’s hp into the shore room *so called the toilet >.< don’t worry your hp is clean 100%* haih.. I got no idea that they went so far ady and I didn’t know that she will not tell me..
Worse thing is.. the ‘new guy’.. he.. haih don’t know how to say.. he call me to tell everything to him and not tell what I have tell him to Xue.. so I say okay I tell *to let him understand my situation and he will tell me his situation..* oh well ended up I’m the only one telling him mine and he say he is too ‘fan’ to say it now.. but things as well ended up.. they talking happily and I’m the one who don’t know anything.. come on man..
I'm not angry of you cause you talked to him so much it's you i'm angry with.. didn't you realise that you didn't tell me anything bout your'll when i' talking bout him??? =.= you appologised *i forgive and..forget haha but i didn't tell her.. >.<* and say you won't talk to him anymore just bacause you don't want to lose this friendship.. in another hand you are losing his friendship also wert..=.= i don't mind your'll talking.. just at least let me know that your'll are that close and you are talking to him.. i would be happy if your'll are together too.. haha *i can guess that he is liking you dude Ahahahahahahahaha YOU ARE DEAD!!* well things come by nicely at least she appologise with not i'm planning to live my life and there goes our friendship but.. i realise that i can't be my self without her so does she.. and i can't always run away from problems like this.. no point right.. so haha conclusion we are done!!! ahahahahahahahaha... =.= someone is insane....... look who's talking...
This morning.. me and someone had just un-misunderstand each other.. then everything was fine as usuall.. just until tuition time..
Haih as I was saying everything went down the drain after I read her hp msg..
1st of all.. during Kapas camp I SORT OF have a MINOR crush on this ‘new guy’ we newly know in camp.. well during the camp we ---- 3 of us kinda like buddy buddy.. so like i say.. I SORT OF have a MINOR crush on him.. on my point of view Xue didn’t really tell me how she feel bout the ‘new guy’ but I my self told her almost everything.. now I know that is kinda foolish when I’m telling her everything and she is not.. it’s like she doesn’t want anybody to know bout her.. to tell you honestly, I don’t like that..
Today 25th Jun 07
I read her msg.. *perposely* cause she is not telling me anything.. then I didn’t know that the whole msg area is full of his msg and I didn’t realise how close are they until I read the 1st few msg.. -.- that time I was like --- o-k-a-y.. that’s.. a.. little.. shockenning.. after that Rynn helped her, Rynn took my hp and started msg-ing Jian.. -.- at first I didn’t give a damn after that when I read further into Xue’s msg-es I got a little pist off.. then Rynn tell me that she is actually just msg-ing some nonsense to Jian.. why am I so worried.. *things and things..* so after that I beh tahan I took Xue’s hp into the shore room *so called the toilet >.< don’t worry your hp is clean 100%* haih.. I got no idea that they went so far ady and I didn’t know that she will not tell me..
Worse thing is.. the ‘new guy’.. he.. haih don’t know how to say.. he call me to tell everything to him and not tell what I have tell him to Xue.. so I say okay I tell *to let him understand my situation and he will tell me his situation..* oh well ended up I’m the only one telling him mine and he say he is too ‘fan’ to say it now.. but things as well ended up.. they talking happily and I’m the one who don’t know anything.. come on man..
I'm not angry of you cause you talked to him so much it's you i'm angry with.. didn't you realise that you didn't tell me anything bout your'll when i' talking bout him??? =.= you appologised *i forgive and..forget haha but i didn't tell her.. >.<* and say you won't talk to him anymore just bacause you don't want to lose this friendship.. in another hand you are losing his friendship also wert..=.= i don't mind your'll talking.. just at least let me know that your'll are that close and you are talking to him.. i would be happy if your'll are together too.. haha *i can guess that he is liking you dude Ahahahahahahahaha YOU ARE DEAD!!* well things come by nicely at least she appologise with not i'm planning to live my life and there goes our friendship but.. i realise that i can't be my self without her so does she.. and i can't always run away from problems like this.. no point right.. so haha conclusion we are done!!! ahahahahahahahaha... =.= someone is insane....... look who's talking...
Monday, June 25, 2007
All the sweet memories had became sour since the day we broke up..
I accidently click enter then sent the post ady.. haven even type anything wei.. =.=
hrm.. I still remember last year after we break up..
YB Chiu Mei Fun having the concert Irama in one of the Subang chinese primary school.. I think that is not long after we break up.. after the concert ends.. I walked past your scouts table that time your'll whole bunch having lunch.. You smile at me.. I smiled back.. but... why? after that you didn't really smile at me when i smile at you ady.. why leh..? haihz.. before we get together, we always play together.. make fun of each other.. wacking each other = ).. all the sweet momeries had become sour.. but why.. why our friendship become like that one....??? why can't we be friends? what happen to us..? haihz.. i know it might be hard for you.. but.. it been a long time since we break up.. i felt sorry too.. i don't know how to start all over again.. heard you sacred i'm playing.. but to tell you the truth i'm not this time.. i'll make sure of my feelings then i'll settle down with you.. but you gave me the sorry look... it's okay.. it's my fault at first.. and now i regreted.. thx to the so call b**** .. but at the end it's still my decision to break up.. so it's still my fault.. I really regret.. I always ask my self Why did i want us to be together..? why did i start it first..? haihz.. We really had lots of fun last year 2 KEMBOJA 2006 rox to the max.. At my point of view after we break up the feeling from you to me it's totally like - - I know you one meh.. ... haihz.. i really want back our friendship feelings.. what can i do until we can get back to the olden we?
hrm.. I still remember last year after we break up..
YB Chiu Mei Fun having the concert Irama in one of the Subang chinese primary school.. I think that is not long after we break up.. after the concert ends.. I walked past your scouts table that time your'll whole bunch having lunch.. You smile at me.. I smiled back.. but... why? after that you didn't really smile at me when i smile at you ady.. why leh..? haihz.. before we get together, we always play together.. make fun of each other.. wacking each other = ).. all the sweet momeries had become sour.. but why.. why our friendship become like that one....??? why can't we be friends? what happen to us..? haihz.. i know it might be hard for you.. but.. it been a long time since we break up.. i felt sorry too.. i don't know how to start all over again.. heard you sacred i'm playing.. but to tell you the truth i'm not this time.. i'll make sure of my feelings then i'll settle down with you.. but you gave me the sorry look... it's okay.. it's my fault at first.. and now i regreted.. thx to the so call b**** .. but at the end it's still my decision to break up.. so it's still my fault.. I really regret.. I always ask my self Why did i want us to be together..? why did i start it first..? haihz.. We really had lots of fun last year 2 KEMBOJA 2006 rox to the max.. At my point of view after we break up the feeling from you to me it's totally like - - I know you one meh.. ... haihz.. i really want back our friendship feelings.. what can i do until we can get back to the olden we?
Saturday, June 23, 2007
If what i say you doesn't want to believe..then it's fine..i'll leave you silently..
how i hope this decision will pull us nearer.. -.-
Dining table
Min : how are ya? heard you fell sick..
Jul : oh.. i'm fine = ) soon we are going together back to Switz.. wanna come?
Min : then why did you need Sean and Luke back there? no thanks you knew i'm having all kinds of exams this few months..
Jul : oh cause i miss them? excuses..
Min : what?!!
Jul : yeah.. why not?
Min : are you crazy?? and you leave them till this week?then why did you came back with them?
Jul : check out some stuff here.. like you = ) i can guess that Sean likes you but i wont't ever give up!! = )
Min : ... i have rejected him so you will have your chance..
Jul : no i don't want it easily.. = ) no revenge.. not challenging at all.. = )
Min : challenge? revenge?
Jul : you are the cause why Cedric is gone!! you are the reason why he drive to Penang.. you are the reason!! it's your fault!!
Min : ... i can't say it's not my fault but.. it's still a accident.....
Jul : cause of you!! if not of you Dric won't cross the damn road.. cause of you....
Min : yes!! is cause of me it's all my fault so what.. even i regreted but i can't change the past.. now you want revenge??!! due to Sean??!! use him to hurt me??!! i'm so sorry i have spoilt your plan..it wouldn't work!!
Jul : i have secrets on hand heard you having some feelings in school.. = ) I'll show you whats revenge..!!!
Min : don't you even dare!!
Jul : you might not know = )
Min : (bitch) *kept it in my heart i don't want to hurt you..*
Pat : hey what are your'll talking about?? so secretive?
Jul : oh.. Min and I having some dicussion on Sean and Luke's up coming b'day party.. = )
Pat : but.. won't Min be...
Min : it's okay = ) ... we can't just don't celebrate the guys b'day because of Cedric.. = )
Jul : = ) of cause..
Pat : oh.. okay.. is there anything i can help?
Jul : it's okay i ady have a plan = ) we are doing a next to a pool party in Sean's house = )
Min : *you knew i can't swim...*
Pat : but.. Min
Jul : oh she don't mind.. don't you.. = )
Min : yeah.......
Pat : okay that great = )
In the garden
Sean : so what your girls talking bout in the hall? someone rise her voice i think..
Min : oh nothing much.. = ) we three girls have a fun time chatting.. = ) *very fake smile*
Sean : oh.. so are you moving with your family?
Min : i have to but i'll just be in home at night and weekends cause i have no transport after school..
Sean : i can drive = )
Min : it's okay you have to keep up in your studies so do i..
Sean : okay..
Sean : can i asked a question..?
Min : = ) go a head.......*oh nooooooo.....*
Sean : still... can't accept me..?
Min : you know.. i'm having a hard time..and *he break my words*
Sean : i understand.. I'll just stay by your side..remember I'll be there 24/7 just for you = )
Min : thanks alot = )
Sean : need help in studies?
Min : it's okay.. i just need to walk over next door to look for you if there's a question right.. = )
Sean : yeah = ) hopefully next month you will be in the house.. = )
Min : = ) *a very sour.. i didn't want to leave where m i now...*
After the whole thing i cried.. and cried.. that night i looked for my brother to chatt with but i fell as sleep half way the conversation.. crying eyes can fell as slepp easily kor.. sorry..haihz.. Jul.. what can i do??? i'm tired with the feeling to the ppl school.. my best friend are having some problem with me.. i'm leaving all my brother.. aiyoooo.. i get fad up with all my music teachers.. even my parents.. they are pressuring me..i'm ady practising my music every day at least 1 and a half hour.. and your'll want more.. damn.. teach me!!! teach me how, what should i do to make all of your'll sactifice??!!!! too tired to continue.. but it's my life.. i can't give up... due to my friends, my brothers..(K) i'm giving up on him.. i don want to make the 1st move anymore... (A) whateva you want to say i don't give a damn anymore.. you want to believe don't want also nvm.. i don't care anymore.. ... it's hard o live a simple life...
Dining table
Min : how are ya? heard you fell sick..
Jul : oh.. i'm fine = ) soon we are going together back to Switz.. wanna come?
Min : then why did you need Sean and Luke back there? no thanks you knew i'm having all kinds of exams this few months..
Jul : oh cause i miss them? excuses..
Min : what?!!
Jul : yeah.. why not?
Min : are you crazy?? and you leave them till this week?then why did you came back with them?
Jul : check out some stuff here.. like you = ) i can guess that Sean likes you but i wont't ever give up!! = )
Min : ... i have rejected him so you will have your chance..
Jul : no i don't want it easily.. = ) no revenge.. not challenging at all.. = )
Min : challenge? revenge?
Jul : you are the cause why Cedric is gone!! you are the reason why he drive to Penang.. you are the reason!! it's your fault!!
Min : ... i can't say it's not my fault but.. it's still a accident.....
Jul : cause of you!! if not of you Dric won't cross the damn road.. cause of you....
Min : yes!! is cause of me it's all my fault so what.. even i regreted but i can't change the past.. now you want revenge??!! due to Sean??!! use him to hurt me??!! i'm so sorry i have spoilt your plan..it wouldn't work!!
Jul : i have secrets on hand heard you having some feelings in school.. = ) I'll show you whats revenge..!!!
Min : don't you even dare!!
Jul : you might not know = )
Min : (bitch) *kept it in my heart i don't want to hurt you..*
Pat : hey what are your'll talking about?? so secretive?
Jul : oh.. Min and I having some dicussion on Sean and Luke's up coming b'day party.. = )
Pat : but.. won't Min be...
Min : it's okay = ) ... we can't just don't celebrate the guys b'day because of Cedric.. = )
Jul : = ) of cause..
Pat : oh.. okay.. is there anything i can help?
Jul : it's okay i ady have a plan = ) we are doing a next to a pool party in Sean's house = )
Min : *you knew i can't swim...*
Pat : but.. Min
Jul : oh she don't mind.. don't you.. = )
Min : yeah.......
Pat : okay that great = )
In the garden
Sean : so what your girls talking bout in the hall? someone rise her voice i think..
Min : oh nothing much.. = ) we three girls have a fun time chatting.. = ) *very fake smile*
Sean : oh.. so are you moving with your family?
Min : i have to but i'll just be in home at night and weekends cause i have no transport after school..
Sean : i can drive = )
Min : it's okay you have to keep up in your studies so do i..
Sean : okay..
Sean : can i asked a question..?
Min : = ) go a head.......*oh nooooooo.....*
Sean : still... can't accept me..?
Min : you know.. i'm having a hard time..and *he break my words*
Sean : i understand.. I'll just stay by your side..remember I'll be there 24/7 just for you = )
Min : thanks alot = )
Sean : need help in studies?
Min : it's okay.. i just need to walk over next door to look for you if there's a question right.. = )
Sean : yeah = ) hopefully next month you will be in the house.. = )
Min : = ) *a very sour.. i didn't want to leave where m i now...*
After the whole thing i cried.. and cried.. that night i looked for my brother to chatt with but i fell as sleep half way the conversation.. crying eyes can fell as slepp easily kor.. sorry..haihz.. Jul.. what can i do??? i'm tired with the feeling to the ppl school.. my best friend are having some problem with me.. i'm leaving all my brother.. aiyoooo.. i get fad up with all my music teachers.. even my parents.. they are pressuring me..i'm ady practising my music every day at least 1 and a half hour.. and your'll want more.. damn.. teach me!!! teach me how, what should i do to make all of your'll sactifice??!!!! too tired to continue.. but it's my life.. i can't give up... due to my friends, my brothers..(K) i'm giving up on him.. i don want to make the 1st move anymore... (A) whateva you want to say i don't give a damn anymore.. you want to believe don't want also nvm.. i don't care anymore.. ... it's hard o live a simple life...
Friday, June 22, 2007
it's a boring day..............
Whole week also so boring nothing to do one.. -.- sleep in class only better still don't go to school..whole day doing nothing in class last period stupid Yee Seng and Andrew talking bout porn over there infront of Audrey, Amelia, Li Jane and me.. -.- nothing to do too boring ady.. then Andrew WATCHING porn with his hp -.- really ar too free ady.. whole bunch over there talking craps.. laugh until stomach pain XD
After Kapas camp.. i found out some one really change alot.. Even i change alot too.. haihz.. well we don't really talk ady.. -.- there goes our friendship.. i read his msg.. 'how should i believe you' hrm.. on what??? have i tell a lie??!!! to you? i don't think so.. why should i??!! it's nothing nice to lie about wert..
Yier.. some body haven tell me some thing important.. well i might be leaving.. which i don't want to.. but it's not my turn to speak out..YET.. now.. erm i hope he does appreciate the moments we have now.. cause.. no time ady..kua.. but if he doesn't..then too bad lo..nvm then can't force him also one.. anyway..it's up to him la..but i know there is a feeling there one..he just don't want to say only.. stupid have to meet Pn Phua privately.. freaky wei.. T.T can i choose to not leave? yier.. lose trust in friends, lose friends in school, lose time to hang out, lose places to go.. next?? lose candy to eat!!!!! ahahahahahahahaha -.-
After Kapas camp.. i found out some one really change alot.. Even i change alot too.. haihz.. well we don't really talk ady.. -.- there goes our friendship.. i read his msg.. 'how should i believe you' hrm.. on what??? have i tell a lie??!!! to you? i don't think so.. why should i??!! it's nothing nice to lie about wert..
Yier.. some body haven tell me some thing important.. well i might be leaving.. which i don't want to.. but it's not my turn to speak out..YET.. now.. erm i hope he does appreciate the moments we have now.. cause.. no time ady..kua.. but if he doesn't..then too bad lo..nvm then can't force him also one.. anyway..it's up to him la..but i know there is a feeling there one..he just don't want to say only.. stupid have to meet Pn Phua privately.. freaky wei.. T.T can i choose to not leave? yier.. lose trust in friends, lose friends in school, lose time to hang out, lose places to go.. next?? lose candy to eat!!!!! ahahahahahahahaha -.-
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
problems problems and more problems....
wtfish.. don't know la.. alot things in my mind i just can't think where to start . . .
okay there goes nothing.. I don't know is jealousy or just hate but how i hope it's not hate...shoot man.. How can i face it now aiyo.. damn.. alot of things happening wei.. can't handle going crazy ady laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
k.m for goodness sick pls la PLS leave me alone with not i really going to shoot you down the drain.. diaozz
damn so many things i can't let it out wei.. nvm nvm chill chill chill... tmr i can know the whole thing.. chill~~~~~
okay there goes nothing.. I don't know is jealousy or just hate but how i hope it's not hate...shoot man.. How can i face it now aiyo.. damn.. alot of things happening wei.. can't handle going crazy ady laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
k.m for goodness sick pls la PLS leave me alone with not i really going to shoot you down the drain.. diaozz
damn so many things i can't let it out wei.. nvm nvm chill chill chill... tmr i can know the whole thing.. chill~~~~~
Saturday, June 16, 2007
hrm.. lets see..
stupid kar sing do those mo liu things.. hah but it didn't work!! tai sei tai sei!!!!! hahaha explain liao loo.. luckily they understand.. >.<>
i'm bored.. saturday.. it's a boring day..
glupp.. later got piano trial exam sei lo.. don't know how leh.. can't play la..
deng then what m i still doing here.. swtness *practising piano*
i'm bored.. saturday.. it's a boring day..
glupp.. later got piano trial exam sei lo.. don't know how leh.. can't play la..
deng then what m i still doing here.. swtness *practising piano*
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
I have an idea.... = )
Eventhough I like you but there a kind of love who called '' Just to stay by your side and have back the normal life with you..'' I won't request for anything.. I don't want you to do anything else or extra for me.. Just let me stay by your side just next you.. Let me have the chance to talk to you.. Let things still be normal.. Don't let this relationship gone.. I understand.. I'm a sister to you, you don't wan to lose a sister I also don't want to lose a brother like you.. So I guess you just wan to let it be like this.. but if we don't contact each other offen.. I sacred... I won't open my world to you anymore.. And I don't want it to be like this.. I have fun time spending with you.. I admit I'm the one who is making the first move.. And I don't like it.. Told my self let it be like this when you want or need me you will come to me naturally.. But how long you want me to wait? I have no patience..
I asked for help from one of friend.. but i can hear that you don't really like it.. What can I do? My other brothers are not so close to me anymore.. I need to releast all this feelings.. I need to tell someone with not I'll collapese and when i collapese.... I really don't know what I will do.. Heard.. you very clever to hide your feelings.. You told me not to take your words so serious.. from now on I won't take it serious.. from now on I won't msg you unless you msg here then I'll reply.. if it's really important then only I'll msg you.. This time I must do it!!!
I asked for help from one of friend.. but i can hear that you don't really like it.. What can I do? My other brothers are not so close to me anymore.. I need to releast all this feelings.. I need to tell someone with not I'll collapese and when i collapese.... I really don't know what I will do.. Heard.. you very clever to hide your feelings.. You told me not to take your words so serious.. from now on I won't take it serious.. from now on I won't msg you unless you msg here then I'll reply.. if it's really important then only I'll msg you.. This time I must do it!!!
Ee Min is lose....
I don't know what to do now.. I'm totally lose.. Why? Why you don't want to tell me? At least tell me how you feel pls..? I got no safetyness with your feelings cause I don't know what are you thinking I don't know how you feel cause you never tell.. I sacred I lose feeling on you or give up cause waited too long, too tired i sacred after when you admit I ady change.. Pls.. don't let me to be like this can? I can't take it anymore.. I really feel like letting my self drown during Kapas camp.. but I know you won't like it.. When I heard that Mei Wan get bitten by -centipit- I was hoping that it was me who is the one who kena.. when she also kena from the -sea rambutans- i also wish it was me...
I want to let me tears drop.. I don't want to tahan cause I know if I keep tahaning it one day when I fall I sacred I can't control.. and my piano trial exam is this sunday i sacred on the spot i can't play then tears will drop that time I will just cry everything out I bet it will be a long cry.. I don't want it to happen cause when I'm taking grade 4 trial, I fight with my best friend on hp in the trial room i felt so sorry so sad then suddently it's my turn.. I can't play then i ended up crying.. everyone was looking at me.. teachers thought that i cried cause I can't play but.. thats not true... This time I don't it to be like this.. Pls.. let my tears drop before this sunday or just tell me something which is true from you.. I don't want to fall.. cause when I fall I will think of someone who leaved me behind...
I learn something from this taiwan drama show.. sometimes if you love or like one person doesn't mean that you must have him/her by your side all the time nor be with him/her.. just let it be natural like how close your'll are last time..
I'm tired.. tired of being the one who always do the first move.. I say to my self before let ppl to come to you don't push your self to him/her.. but i can't help it cause.. it's like if one day didn't get to talk to you i'll feel.. weird.. moody.. I also don't want to let you control my mood.. I tried my best to be happy when you are not in.. but.. I just can't help it.. Kor has gone to out station.. I don't think he came back ady.. even if he came back i still can't really link back to him... At last I found someone who I can talk to.. secrets.. = ) I think if with out him I really can.. kaa---booomm.. thank you = ) I hope either just let it go on like this or... I also don't know what to do... haihz
I want to let me tears drop.. I don't want to tahan cause I know if I keep tahaning it one day when I fall I sacred I can't control.. and my piano trial exam is this sunday i sacred on the spot i can't play then tears will drop that time I will just cry everything out I bet it will be a long cry.. I don't want it to happen cause when I'm taking grade 4 trial, I fight with my best friend on hp in the trial room i felt so sorry so sad then suddently it's my turn.. I can't play then i ended up crying.. everyone was looking at me.. teachers thought that i cried cause I can't play but.. thats not true... This time I don't it to be like this.. Pls.. let my tears drop before this sunday or just tell me something which is true from you.. I don't want to fall.. cause when I fall I will think of someone who leaved me behind...
I learn something from this taiwan drama show.. sometimes if you love or like one person doesn't mean that you must have him/her by your side all the time nor be with him/her.. just let it be natural like how close your'll are last time..
I'm tired.. tired of being the one who always do the first move.. I say to my self before let ppl to come to you don't push your self to him/her.. but i can't help it cause.. it's like if one day didn't get to talk to you i'll feel.. weird.. moody.. I also don't want to let you control my mood.. I tried my best to be happy when you are not in.. but.. I just can't help it.. Kor has gone to out station.. I don't think he came back ady.. even if he came back i still can't really link back to him... At last I found someone who I can talk to.. secrets.. = ) I think if with out him I really can.. kaa---booomm.. thank you = ) I hope either just let it go on like this or... I also don't know what to do... haihz
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Me & Pulau Kapas
I really enjoy and have a good time in Pulau Kapas.. I regret by not doing things I want to do through out the whole camp in Pulau Kapas.. I regret by not saying the words I want to say to the person I want to.. I regret by not appreciating the time we have there.. I regret I didn't do the best in every activies they organise.. I regret by letting teacher down.. I wish there is no boat for us to come back to Marang jeti.. >.<> The theory i learn from my self is.. Do whateva thing you feel like doing or saying or feel while there is still a chance for you, with not it will be too late when you regret..
2nd, 6th June, 2007
I think we woke up around 8:30 or 7:30am.. forget liao loo~ Okay this is what we do the whole day.. breakfast we cook our self not our self, our self.. we cook the food our self XD then after cleaning the 1st game groupand the 3rd game group will go for cannoeing first then while this 2 group is out for cannoeing the others group play sand castle.. XD okies.. i 1stly partner with Sim Wuei then Sir change to Jerrad XD nvm I have fun time with him specially when the speed boat pass by XP syokNYA!! 1! 2! 1! 1! 2! 1! turn left~~ turn right~~ paddle!! o.0 reach the open sea ady.. XD one word ------ beautiful!! haha okay everyone gather next to Sir.. oh such a nice scenery.. okay now Sir call Shawna down the cannoe.. oh oh not good I.... don't know how to swim!!! hahaha nvm la got life jacket XD thx to Jerrad also he call Sir to let me down... haha nvm i have fun just that u can't climb back into the cannoe cause arm no strengh and mental strengh is not there haihz such a failure right.. haha Sir helped me to climb on the cannoe end up i accidently kick his tummy hahaha sorry Sir! XP haha luckily he didn't scold kakax.. okies then slowly call some to come down then climb in after that we paddle to the rocks side then paddle back for fun again XD Jerrad and me racing with Ze Xiang and Sim Wuei see who reach the rocks and the shore first haha so fun but of cause you arm will be tired la XD but it's worth the hapiness of it = ) okay it's the next 2 groups turn to go cannoeing.. we pull back the cannoe on the shore then play water for ahile then went back to the camp side and start building sand castle XD guess what's my groups sand castle name... XP something gotta do with red idians or black idians something idians one la haha so funny don't know teacher got take pic anot XD Xiang keep playing with sand make until my shirt so dirty of cause.. sand fight!!! Xiang you are so dead!!! hahaha after building everything is done.... plush back into the water!! until everyone came back then play for awhile sun set liao go take bath start to cook dinner loo~ my group don't really have the 'trathegy' there.. we don't agree in one thing together.. end up kelam-kabut everything..nvm at least we still have our dinner nicely haha
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