beh tahan gotta use foul words ady..too angry

okay.. today just sux to the max..
aiyo i shouldn't have ask him la.. got a answer i didn't really wanted.. >.< oh gosh.. so sad.. don't know how to say.. t** lo.. nvm la.. i think things is just going to be fine.. i'll just treat him as my brother that's all..

Bye Kian..

Killa xp

绝对的完美一双手pair of perfect hands,不流汗也不发抖Neither sweating nor trembling.交叉在微笑的背后-crossed behind a gentle smile,暗藏危险的轮廓 a hidden, dangerous personna.在你最放松的时候When you are most relaxed,绝不带着任何感情would, without any feelings,就下手从来不回头Do the deed, never looking back.开始的感觉 In the beginning, you will feel,不会痛 不会痛 No pain, no pain at all.放大的瞳孔 就像作梦Viewed through your enlarged pupils, it is just like a dream.幸福的错觉 The false sense of happiness,很温暖 很包容Is very warm, and very accomodating也许还期待Perhaps you are even looking forward to this.这是致命的冲动 This is a life-destroying impulse.你不懂 我不懂You do not know, nor do I,究竟杀手为什么存在The reason that killers exist.因为爱 还是未知的未来Because love, is an unknown future.心情放松摇摆I feel relaxed,在你三百米之外When I'm more than 300m away from you.数着心跳等待Counting my heartbeat, I wait,所有念头全抛开Discarding all thoughts.锁进来 进来 Locking in, in,这美丽的悲哀This beautiful tragedy.这是爱 就是爱This is love, this must be love,全世界都不明白But of the whole world no one else understands.心情放松摇摆I feel relaxed,在你三百米之外When I'm more than 300m away from you.感觉饥饿难耐I feel an unbearable hunger;需要你填满空白I need you to fill the emptiness in me.锁进来 进来 Locking in, in,这美丽的悲绝对的完美一双手A pair of perfect hands,不流汗也不发抖Neither sweating nor trembling.交叉在微笑的背后Criss-crossed behind a gentle smile,暗藏危险的轮廓Is a hidden, dangerous personna.在你最放松的时候When you are most relaxed,绝不带着任何感情I would, without any feelings,就下手从来不回头Do the deed, never looking back.开始的感觉 In the beginning, you will feel,不会痛 不会痛 No pain, no pain at all.放大的瞳孔 就像作梦Viewed through your enlarged pupils, it is just like a dream.幸福的错觉 The false sense of happiness,很温暖 很包容 Is very warm, and very accomodating也许还期待Perhaps you are even looking forward to this.这是致命的冲动This is a life-destroying impulse.你不懂 我不懂You do not know, nor do I,究竟杀手为什么存在The reason that killers exist.因为爱 还是未知的未来Because love, is an unknown future.心情放松摇摆I feel relaxed,在你三百米之外When I'm more than 300m away from you.数着心跳等待 Counting my heartbeat, I wait,所有念头全抛开Discarding all thoughts.锁进来 进来 Locking in, in,这美丽的悲哀 This beautiful tragedy.这是爱 就是爱This is love, this must be love,全世界都不明白But of the whole world no one else understands.心情放松摇摆I feel relaxed,在你三百米之外When I'm more than 300m away from you.感觉饥饿难耐I feel an unbearable hunger;需要你填满空白I need you to fill the emptiness in me.锁进来 进来 Locking in, in,这美丽的悲哀 This beautiful tragedy.这是爱 就是爱 This is love, this must be love,只有你明白Only you would understand.
This beautiful tragedy.这是爱 就是爱 This is love, this must be love,只有你明白 Only you would understand.

saya mahu saya punnya HP!!!!!!!!!!!

tiada lagi.. sodah.. hapus dari dunia ini.. semua yang saya mahukan sudah.. hapus.. aiyo wondering all around ler.. it's just SO wrong.. blu.. hmmph not fair one..

oh well 'he' is going Sweden foe 2 weeks 'i think' yeh! i'll be free for 2 weeks kakax XD no la not really counted as.. FREE.. hmm.. nvm now want i want is MY PHONE!!!!!!!!!! mampuslah saya...............................

In this farewell,

There's no blood,

Theres no alibi.

Cause I've drawn regret,

From the truth,

Of a thousand lies.

So let mercy come,

And wash away...

What I've Done.

I'll face myself,

To cross out what I've become.

Erase myself,

And let go of what I've done.

Put to rest,

What you thought of me.

While I clean this slate,

With the hands,

Of uncertainty.

So let mercy come,

And wash away...

What I've Done.

I'll face myself,

To cross out what I've become.

Erase myself,

And let go of what I've done.

For What I've Done I start again,

And whatever pain may come.

Today this ends,

I'm forgiving what I've done.

I'll face myself,

To cross out what I've become.

Erase myself,

And let go of what I've done.

What I've done.

Forgiving What I've Done.

cheessxxzzz

seriously.. I want to give up liao leh.. pls let me give up la.. now i always ask my self.. why do i like him leh.. the more i go on staying next to him.. the more i will treat him as my brother.. to just be his friend.. i should diserve more.. to be his sister.. i feel a little lonely.. to be his girl friend.. i think.. =.= no i dea.. haiyo.. then just let me stop la.. i seriously beh tahan this kind of situation ady.. either let me hate you or let me, love you.. >.< argh!!

I still believe

shed our outer beauty what of us is left when we're transparent? love is like a crystal sphere, solid yet fragile
maybe being alone gives you freedom but the feelings of two people are greater than the sky you have happiness as well as sorrow, don't let regret remain
I still believe love can make it through the turmoil tightly hold my hands, one second is enough to not be lonely
I still believe love needs a dream to bring happiness even if our futures lead to different places you'll be in my heart forever
when you're cold, I'll hold you to my chest when your tears fall, I'll be here, I won't go the gentleness that love gives, experience it diligently now I want to be with you, let happiness revolve
I still believe love can make it through the turmoil tightly hold my hands, one minute without loneliness
I still believe that only love with a dream can give us happiness even if our futures lead to different places you and me, everlasting

When there was me and you....

It was a lovely night tonight.. you could only heard rain drops from the sky and happy families having their dinner together.. I was sitting on a lazy chair right outside my very own balcony staring at the beautiful sky raining.. I on my radio player, coincidentally it was playing the song -- Kiss Goodbye by LEE HOM.. it was my favourite song.. This song reminds me of you, from time to time i listen to it.. Now I''m wondering what are you doing, have you eaten your dinner, do you have a fun day but all this came too late..

I stand up and offed my radio.. I walked towards my brand new white acoustic piano in my room.. i sat down.. and open the cover of the piano.. then i started playing my favourite song by the Theme of Ordinary People ---- Canon In D .. It was a lovely song to hear and to play.. This night i played the song gracefully.. very smooth.. very sweet.. larghetto-ly.. after once playing it i repeated it again.. the more i go on playing the song it became more sorrow.. more heavy chords.. the more i go on.. the more image of you appearing from my mind.. For once.. I miss you so much.. wish that you will at least send me a missed call nor a short msg.. but.. there is nothing ringing in my room.. i spam my chords on my piano.. i got fad up thinking of you and you have all the laughter i ever wanted.. i skip the song and persuade to the next book..

I found the score Audrey gave me.. it was Dearest by Ayumi Hamasaki.. I played specially at the chorus part very fast and very loud.. I can't really play as good as Audrey in this time.. but i was shock when i finished the song none stop but not only that.. i also found out i didn't even miss a note..

Soon after i finish playing this song.. my phone rang.. i was so happy.. though it was you i ran towards the side table next to my bed.. i took my phone and answer the call.. unfortunately.. it wasn't you.. the person who is calling is my so called 'boy friend' now.. How i wish the person who is so concern bout me it's you..

In fact I'm a person who needs care.. I use to assume that the person i like will take good care of me.. but it's all wrong.. now that I'm awake.. i know that i can't be like this anymore..

It's funny when you find your self looking from the outside I'm standing here but all i want is to be over there why did i let my self believe miracle could happen cos now i have to pretend that i don't really care i though you were my fairy tale my dream when i not sleeping a wish upon a star that's coming true when there was me and you i swore i knew the melody that i heard you singing and when you smiled you made me feel that i could sing along but then you went and changed the words now my heart is empty I'm only left with used to be and once upon a song now i know you're not a fairy tale and dreams are meant for sleeping and wishes on a star just don't come true because i like the view when there is me and you i can't believe that i could be so blind it's like you were floating while i was falling and i didn't mind i though you felt it too when there was me and you

foul words for the day

Am I the one who is 'trapping' you all the while? you didn't voice out also.. i always ask you things but you didn't answer the actual thing you want to answer the reason -- cause you sacred i get angry.. and you let me found out instate of letting me know then of cause i'm will be more angry right chi bai.. then when we're with others ppl then only you say that you though of like that before.. hello??!!! if you don't say how the hell am i suppose to know idiot!! If it's my fault all the while then i apologise to you.. to me i think that i'm also very bossy at times that's why i always ask for your opinion. but end up you saying ok la ok la then when i got ask the same thing again then you will get angry i also will get angry when you get angry of me when i'm trying to ask for your opinion.. wtf.............

I told you, you can talk to him.. it's your life la bloody hell.. i don't want to make you feel that i'm the one controling your life.. that is why you say you feel free now right!! i'm damn kao happy when you say you don't want our friendship to over just like this.. and now you say you want it to be seperate ways then everything you talk finish la i don't need to speak a word la is iz fuck ass!! chi bai..

I really don't undertsand you lo after the conflic bout 'him' we're fine one wert.. now what?! you freak me out last friday you know.. i wanted to ask Pn Wan Hajimah to change place last friday one.. then this morning..don't need to do until so obvious one la OKAY..sh.... i cry for shit only now you want to go seperate ways right.. fine la then i happy you happy la..by the way i'm transfering also wert sh purposely one is iz chi bai i really don't know,can't even guess what are you thinking the whole damn year did you notice??!!!! you always don't tell me what are you thinking.. and you know i hate ppl knowing my stuff and i don't even know a damn thing bout them right

Ever since Ced death i really know what is 'when you lose something then only you will appreciate it more'.. you really treat me very nice after the conflic bout 'him' i'm damn shock that time.. damn happy.. i also try to treat you the same way you treat me..Now.. sorry.. i regreted by not following your choice..

haihz today i scold alot of ppl but it's not their fault.. i'm sorry la guys i shout at your'll.. >.< but Pn Teh memang sh one la chi bai.. Pn Lee LC =.= stupid kinder garden teacher

sweet memories

I have fun playing 1 on 1 basketball with you eventhough i lose.. just by that 6-7score =.= and i own you a drink pulak . . .
Can't believe I'm smiling all the time when i'm with you..
Why you look at me with that expression..?
I can feel that you like me = ) nvm it's okay if you don't say.. Let it be this way I'm fine just make sure we keep in touch k.. = )Hehe.. i'm happy that you care for me..
= ) thanks.. dear

bye bye bye

I'm doing this tonight You're probably gonna start a fight. I know this can't be right.When you weren't there for me. So now it's time to leave and make it alone I know that I can't take no more It ain't no lie Don't wanna be a fool for you Just another player in your game for two You may hate me but it ain't no lie Don't really wanna make it tough, I just wanna tell you that I had enough. It might sound crazy,But it ain't no lie,Just hit me with the truth, Now, girl you're more than welcome to. So give me one good reason, And now I really come to see, That life would be much better once things are done. I know that I can't take no more. I'm giving up I know for sure. I'm checking out I'm signing off Don't wanna be the loser and I've had enough

it's a busy week haha

so busy the whole week wei.. so tired!!

Monday, after school li jane,amelia,audrey and me planned to go cendol but ended up only me and audrey.. worse still me and audrey walk to Tmn Bahagia where the cendol sells then........zha dou it's not open =.= then we go chao yang walk until half way pass by ''back gate down there that field'' saw k.h.......... =.= hmmph.. then we walk to chao ynag and eat Ipoh Hor Fun audrey eat curry mee

Tuesday, after school i got piano class for one hour after that me and audrey went somewhere but i forgotten ady.. har har har... but it's really tired.. i think we went coffee bean.. half way saw Angela and Natt then 4 of us go together >.<

Wednesday, after school hrm.. ''short term memory lose..'' i went sahara around 5pm something saw some ppl there then walk closer and closer and closer.. it's SCOUTS!!!! =.= zha dou.. plus i'm alone that time.. stupid Chee Ken don't concentrate on marching trying to guess who is sitting alone over there haha then we went some where again.. oh ya i think we went teaport cafe then audrey let me see that thing up there.. stupid lamb chop make me stomach ache then after that i can't play basketball........when we reach sahara scouts haven practice finish then we slowly talk talk chat chat.. haha then when scouts finish k.h and k.s came.. kakax luckily o.0

Thursday, violin class again haha then i forgot what happen again.. haha soli oh

Friday, it's SPORTS DAY!!!!!!! haha went to school around 06:45AM haha have to set up every thing bout P.A. then make sure can listen everything is done perfectly haha.. then.. sports day start loo lazy to type arr!! just came back from school after librarian install.. so freakingly tired..... okay okay then.... start lo.. erm skip skip skip then lunch time.. that pic up there is me and charlene in library eating nasi lemak belanjed by Pn Foo haha delicious.. actually if you are hungry then everything is delicious of cause something that can be eatten is delicious la XD.. =.='' oh ya after that i went R&R they started the competition ady then.. no first me, audrey, and angela went 3Mawar kin hei, yu ming,darren, wei shiong, and few more guys were playing pokemon card haha then we on song and everything when they start inthe school that time we 3 girls faster rush down haha.. saw most of the kadet polis near R&R then Nasri asked to take a photo with me but ended up.. that pic Poh Pui help me take she purposely take only me and randall... zha dou...... ok ok then i gave ''him'' the necklace kekex it's a him and her.. don't know he like it anot haha

Saturday, 9:45 to 11am piano class in DJ then 2-5pm librarians install 5-11pm 5:30-6pm violin class in OU..librarians bbq night hahaha this is the few pics i took during the bbq, disco lights in library haha funNYA!! lots of things happen but too lazy to write.. mom scolding ady haha ciaoz

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