Crazy Timing

It's 6:01am now.....
I'm awake because of this dumb dumb girl other there
=.=
but I'm not sleep nor tired












uh....................................




really



















crazy lo...










sakai just came back from Switz.... smart betul take plane reach at mid night =.= tmr sunday ah............................................







can sleep longer

^.~
6:03am
> lexis <

Get To Know

Someday2ne1 latest album - FireA'ST 1 - 1.2.3.4 Back
SMASH - Emergency.. is not bad
=)

Still Prom

It will do with this heels =] love them~!!Masquerade mask, my 2nd choice



Cessianne a Spirit of Two Halves
Cesianne is a Spirit cloven in two. While everything in life is not black and white - Cesianne is like yin and yang, on one side she is kind, beautiful and loving and on the other she has a darker more fearsome side. So long as she remains held together by the light crystal at her forehead her balance is harmonious and neither side takes precident.

This beautiful mask is tied with matching black and white striped ribbon and black picot edge ribbon. The mask itself is backed with a matching black felt lining making it comfortable to wear for long periods of time or an excellent finish for an ornamental decorative piece.

First choice =D It's called
Serume the Spirit of Frost

4:49am
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imsleepy

Wondering

I want to cut my hair like this.. again
It's kinda boy cut ya know...
hmmm and!
I LOST MY RING! for a week or two ady
T.T i need a new one, as my finger is feeling lonely without it
sob sob...

so should I? I dislike summer sometimes.. it's freakin hot~
4:10am
> lexis <
whyamInotsleeping?

This is what I want to say

When the blinding light
Of the morning comes
I open my eyes with love and sing
Only for you

For you I love you only you
Filled with my restless heart
With words smoother than the fragrant of scent of coffee
I look towards you

Do you know
I know you feel it too
The words of your heart is "love"
I hear it now
I see it now
This timid feeling that is more beautiful than any flower
Look towards me
Hold my hands tightly
Such a happy feeling
Such a bilnding fate
I smile at the scent of love

Whenever the wind blows
I gently close my eyes
And whisper a charm of love
So that you may feel my heart
Look into my eyes
That is filled with my restless heart
As warm as a magical kiss
Please accept my feelings

I will promise
That our hands will always be together
Such a happy feeling
Such a bilnding fate
Let's get drunk oof the scent of love
forever.....

I love you and you alone

From the first time we met, I knew we would be friends
You had a different air than others that I knew
I am also alone in this world I’ve come to know
Finally, I’ve met someone like you

I know that I might’ve been a bit cold at times
But that was just the way I dealt with all my fears
You took the first step to show I don’t have to be alone
And now I, I know I love you

I will be waiting for you
Don’t care how long it may take
I will always be right here
When you need to laugh or cry

You let me know
When you are ready to love
And I will rush to your side
To sweep you into my arms

Maybe one day you’ll know the love that I’ve kept inside
I know love comes with pain; it’s so hard to erase
All that I’m asking is for you to let me stay here
Don’t be scared; you can lean on me

I know I’ve found the one when I look into your eyes
I will wait by your side till you can give me your heart

To You My Dearest

Is This What They Call L.o.v.e?

I drawled you on a piece of white paper

I swear to myself before that I will stay as brave as a tiger for standing alone is not easy. I've always convince myself that everything would be fine. It's only a true friend I seek out there all the while. A person who cares from the bottom of one's heart. I have not met one didn't I? Or I've miss it myself when it came into my life? Did I chase the innocent soul away?

Or should I consider you as my faithful friend? But I've always felt awkward to tell you some things.. I'll feel guilty or sorry after sharing my problems or a person whom I admire to you. I'm afraid that I will hurt you without knowing that I did. I have always treat you as my brother and it's hurtful enough for a guy like you. I dare not speak about us.. I do not have the courage to face you.. So our meeting is always delayed.. I feel so bad that I'm treating you this way.

I often think that leaving our friendship to an end is the best way. But once again another bleed in you. I fear to admit that we're closer than before. I fear to face the fact that I feel comfortable talking to you. But it's wrong. Because.. all these is not made in reality.. All these is thru electronic gadgets.. I know it can not last long to further our friendship. But I do not know why I fear to meet you. I am so sorry I am doing this again. By not telling you straight but writing in public. What am I doing now is going to cause a deep scar... Foolish me. Had to be alone for few days.

There was once I was touched by you. Confuse is it love or purely friendship? Wondering words that you said before does it still count? Once I reach this question... I change my thoughts straight away. Maybe we were meant to be friends, soul mates.. Maybe we are just each other's passer by. Letting each other learn our lesson.. All this came into me. I've no idea what is wrong with me tonight. Sometimes I miss talking to you. But all we only talk is sea food

I know all this is not worth spending time on.. For most of the time you get on my nerves.. I guess I will face high blood pressure soon =/ Knowing that our conversation have no points but I still want to see your name appear as a new message in my inbox... Realising I'll get mad if you didn't message me for days.. Sometimes it make me bet with my self that you will text me the next morning.. and yes... you did. Unbelievably all my mood swing and my misbehave doesn't cause you any headache.. or it did but I didn't realise again.. You're spoiling me in a way.. In future I need and hope that my partner will sometimes encourages me on doing the right thing, sometimes fool with me.

I'm afraid.. very scared that something will adjust us again. Sooner or later I will hurt you again. Maybe even now. I am very scared about that. But not telling all these feeling kept inside.. It's getting harder to breathe.. What I know, what I've experience about love is.. I'll can't live without him. I'll miss him every second even thought we just met. I'll go crazy over one soft text message he sent. But all these feelings.. Did not occur

So I think we really should stop connecting each other for some time. I think I have to readjust my personal feelings... All this is my own thinking.. selfishness

28th May 2009
03:00am
> lexis <

Sg. Congkak Trip 1

This is the only thing I made to bbq, others is the guys who do it for us =]
It the sun I'm taking picture, not you xP * inside joke*
See? The guys.. so hard working. 1st time see guys so automatic ^.~
Packing up

Leaving
The later the evening is, the more people come to camp
Our vehicle =]

The 2 silly sisters
People in the car.
Kelisa behind
Unsur in front. Our driver is a very familiar person to me, yes it is him! I saw him in pasar malam just now =]
Back in SS2, Angel's Mom drop us at Hui Yi's house then we.. detour.. instead of going back home, we went SS2 to have snacks.. At 1st wanted the driver to drop us at Mid Valley xD but because of her brain working slow so we didn't. LoL
Hailam Coffee Shop
Group Picture of the day =D It was really nice to meet you guys.
In grandma's house, it is raining heavily. So no drowning my self in water anymore.
Lots more pictures to be up loaded. Well, goodnight everyone.
It's teacher day today =]

3:14am
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Hi school =)

Husband & Wife

By~Bride & Bridegroom

My god sister of my mother's family side.. Pretty leh.. I got my 1st ear hole because of her ^^ Thinking of her when I got my 2nd =)

I stayed in Teluk Intan for 1/2 a year when I was small.. Living with her family.. Which is my Mom's cousin's house.. =] Enic & I spent our 1st christmas there.. It's awesome.

We didn't meet up ever since we leave there.. So I'm going to meet my sister! SOON! and she's getting married so a shuai shuai ge ge.. xD

Flower girl? no la not me this time.. =] still young okayy.. lots of chance.. so to all sunbae~ faster get marry oh ^^

1:07am
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Prom Dress

Purple-tipped Fronds Of Lavender

Like a pair of licensed fools

''Doubt thou the stars are fire;
Doubt that the sun doth move;
Doubt truth to be a liar;
But never suspect I love.''

Talk about my day.. started off great because I slept well that night. I went to school as I promised..I ate breakfast, I even brought a little snack back class.. I slag during BI lesson.. Everything was usual for me.. But I still feel that something is not right at first.

After school I hang around the back gate to get a cup of milk tea.. in the evening piano class was excellent. I almost blast the whole room down.. As I was emotional for the classical song I'm playing.. Beethoven & Clementi..

Music was my everything.. It's going to be a major thing in my life soon. It was too late to discover that music stands in such an important place in my heart. Once I dream to play in a famous orchestra was now fading further away from me as I don't give in all my effort and no commitment in it.. I felt guilty to my parents.. At this age, at this time, I can be at least a grade8 holder.. But what I am today is no victory gain in the challenge to a grade5 student.. Once a chance of getting a scholarship to London just slipped away from my hands at the age of 12th.. Used to be the top student of the school, as age grows in, taking actions too easily.. Thinking the world is to set by me.. Knowing that what she wants is what people must offer. All this foolish, immature thinking had spoilted me for 17 years. And it have to stop.

Feeling so guilty.. feeling so down.. what was I doing for the past 17years? When will I stand up to my self, to the world and start to think maturely.. And not behaving like a 6years old child anymore.. Pampered by foster parents and family friends... How would I reach my dreams? How am I suppose to stand? Just like falling down on the ice rink.

What I am doing now is leading me towards... darkness..? Where is my future? Because of my foolishness landing in classes without teacher most of the time.. It's all my fault that I've no choice but to choose this path.. Yet, I don't want to feel this insane feeling of guilty in me anymore.

Of course suiciding it's not a way to solve such problems.. It will cause even worse situation.. I understand all this. I'm not as dumb to end my life at this age. No matter how, even though some of you prefer me to be gone, I will not listen to a single word from ''you'', this my life. And in a life there is hates and likes.

1:37am
> lexis <

I'll be fine, probably in the morning later. No worries
p/s : I hate people who treat others as fake friends.

Crazy Over

Super Junior - It's You

Neorago

Summer Air

It's Ophelia, Dad. It's not an rubbish book. It's Shakespeare

A day at home.. Tuesday kills.... =.= I am suppose to be practising my violin now. Exam is on July.. the 9th. My god. I'm gonna be stress and fully busy till the end of SPM. Not that I'm fully packed with things to do and not have fun right.. I'll seek for fun half way thru. I shall not let my self die in the hand of the violin. I'll die with it if there is a need to. LoL.

Mom is cooking En's favourite dish.. I mean today's dinner is going to be on En's favourite dishes.. Hmmph. Prawns.. I hate you. xP and Mom found out that I don't eat much on the others dishes.. Hmmph.. Lao gai ady xP My face in front of MoM is as colourful as rainbow~ yeah.. I'm right.. =.=

Dinner~~~~~~ is prepared.. It's done at this timing.. chi sin lo... now not even 6pm then dinner is serve.. others day also same. and Mom always blame me and Marcus for hunting food about 10pm.. -.-

5:43pm
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p/s : finding pleasure in the pressure of his hand

Beware The Poison Apple

Omg I started to up load these pictures at 4:30pm and now only it's done.

Friday 22nd May 2009

Half a day to KLCC
this is at Kelana Jaya LRT Station

Reached! KLCC

Main Concourse
In Kinokunia


Outside the park.. The twin tower

Can you see the crowd? Banyak orang oh....

It's 7pm plus I think.. Seeing every restorent also fully booked.. queue up also until outside.. Eventhough I got a seat also feel paiseh la.. So thought of going cold storage to get a coke.. But...... saw so much packed food.. then brought a pack of egg sandwich and a green tea.. Don't know where to go at last went out and eat.. hahaha totally own the tourist's feeling

8:30pm ba..... Go back loo.. Nothing to walk ady.. Look for Juice Work until fad up.. haha

Headig to Kelana Jaya.. Then Mom fetch me up there..
Whole thing only one person know.. xD so farnny~
Thanks to my sister la. dump me at home and went Melaka with Amy.. hmmph

6:25pm
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